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User Topic: I used to write in journals...
tesla
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Default  Posted: 10:34 PM, May 20th (Monday)

...now I post here. Maybe someday I'll get back into the journaling habit but at the moment, the company here is preferable.

Sigh.
On Facebook this evening I see that stripper whore has friended ex-shat's grandma. I really liked ex-shat's grandma and felt bad about unfriending her...but I refuse to have any potential stripper whore inadvertently trickling into my life.

Being a dummy, I clicked on stripper whore's profile. She had posted 215 pics of her and ex-shat on vacation at some cabin in a state park. Well, at least we know where Teslet's support is going.

I looked through every one of those damn pictures and didn't feel a thing. No, I take that back. I felt pity for these people whose issues are clearly oozing through the pictures.
I felt gratitude that I don't have to feel suffocated and stifled anymore. My new life feels open. It's this huge blank canvas and Teslet and I are shopping around for some kick-ass paints that we can get wherever the fuck we want.
When I saw that picture of him with that stupid, tortured, angst filled look on his face, I rolled my eyes. Really dude? You're not tired of that bullshit yet? Don't you want to grow and discover and live?? Truly live unfettered by your demons?

I think that they are absolutely perfect for each other.

Oh and ex-shat, your lawyer is going to be asking you the same three questions I texted to you last week. Of course now it's going to cost you whereas doing the right thing is free. Do us all a favor as it looks like stripper whore enjoys weekend get away trips...pay the piper now. Don't force this into court. You are absolutely going to lose AND look the fool. Stupid, stupid man.


"Thou art the son and heir of a mongrel bitch." --King Lear

Posts: 4687 | Registered: Jan 2012 | From: Indiana
ButterflyGirl
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Default  Posted: 11:27 PM, May 20th (Monday)

Maybe someday I'll get back into the journaling habit but at the moment, the company here is preferable.

I totally agree! My journal has been empty since I found SI. The company here is much better

I made the mistake a couple weeks ago of clicking on STBX's Facebook profile even though we aren't "friends." He didn't put any protection on it, so I can see whatever.. His recent activity showed that he friended MOW and the twink he's cheating on her with, one right after each other. Whatever. I'm done looking at that crap.

I've seen enough to know that I've seen too much!!

How is Teslet liking his playground? That was one kickass picture you drew with your new paints


xBW~ 35
Two DS~ 7-Eleven
"I've wiped the shit off. It can be wiped off you know." ~ asurvivor

Posts: 2329 | Registered: Feb 2013 | From: Florida, USA
persevere
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Member # 31468
Default  Posted: 12:48 AM, May 21st (Tuesday)

I'm so glad this place is your refuge, it's a good place for that.

I'm working on learning to journal to really work on the issues I try to pretend don't really exist, ala The Journey from Abandonment to Healing. It's tough.

But I will never discount the importance of SI.


Me: BW-44
Him: XWH-44
Together 9 yrs
DDays: 1/10/2011
Status: Divorced 4/27/11

Above all, be the heroine, not the victim. - Nora Ephron

It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.
- J. K. Rowling


Posts: 4609 | Registered: Mar 2011 | From: Texas
Jada52
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Default  Posted: 12:58 PM, May 21st (Tuesday)

I have been journaling since I was 16 and still keep one only it is online now instead of pen/paper.


Silly Slut, husbands are for wives - get your own man B*tch!

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