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ProbableIceCream
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Default  Posted: 6:16 PM, May 24th (Friday)

I feel like I'm starting to slowly put my life back together, but it still feels really hollow sometimes. Not all of it. I feel great about what I do at work, for example, and I have some hobby type stuff that I like. But overall I don't have the sense of 'meaningfulness' that I used to have. And sometimes I do have trouble being interested in things.. really depends on the day. Going out usually feels good.

Sounds like someone describing really low grade depression, eh?

Anyway, this is just a small vent.. I'll just keep working on stuff. Just feeling a little flat today. Probably doesn't help that I have a cold.


Me, 32. DD, 8. DS, 6 (deceased).

D-Day was April 2012. Divorced Jul 2013. Moved ~1000 miles away (as the crow flies) Jul 2014.


Posts: 806 | Registered: Nov 2012 | From: Pacific Northwest
Sad in AZ
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Default  Posted: 6:21 PM, May 24th (Friday)

Look at it this way; if you were 'up' all the time, you'd burn yourself out. This is your psyche's way of chilling. You're going through a trauma, so don't expect to be 100% for a while.

You're probably doing a lot better than I did at your stage.


I solemnly swear that I am up to no good.

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tabitha95
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Default  Posted: 7:22 PM, May 24th (Friday)

I get it. I sometimes wonder if I would get diagnosed as bi-polar, but I don't have the manic part. Just different degrees of up and down. My ups don't last as long as my down's though.


BW (me) - 45
DS 14, DS 11
D-Day#1: Oct 30, 2008
D-Day#2: June 3, 2011 (same MOW) Separation: June 3, 2011
Divorce finalized: Feb 2012 (due to 6 month waiting period).

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phmh
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Default  Posted: 7:46 PM, May 24th (Friday)

Do you volunteer at all? Studies have shown that's one of the best ways to feel good about yourself.

What used to give your life meaning?


Me: BW, divorced, now fabulous and happy!

Married: 11 years, no kids

The greater danger for most of us lies not in setting our aim too high and falling short; but in setting our aim too low, and achieving our mark. -Michelangelo


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ProbableIceCream
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Default  Posted: 5:59 AM, May 25th (Saturday)

phmh, volunteering is a good idea. I've been meaning to do some volunteering anyway soon.

I'll have to think about your question. It's 4 AM here and my brain's not fully on yet.


Me, 32. DD, 8. DS, 6 (deceased).

D-Day was April 2012. Divorced Jul 2013. Moved ~1000 miles away (as the crow flies) Jul 2014.


Posts: 806 | Registered: Nov 2012 | From: Pacific Northwest
Amazonia
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Default  Posted: 6:30 AM, May 25th (Saturday)

Exercise helps too.
Ae you familiar with the SI concept of the "plain of lethal flatness"?


"You yourself deserve your love and affection as much as anybody in the universe." -Buddha
"Let's face it, life is a crap shoot." -Sad in AZ

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ProbableIceCream
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Default  Posted: 6:55 PM, May 25th (Saturday)

Amazonia, I just read about the plain of lethal flatness after reading your post.

When it was cooler out (I live in a very hot place) I jogged a lot. Now I manage 2.4 miles a week of walking, but that's kind of a bare minimum figure. I think until I figure out something better I'm going switch to tracking steps on a pedometer to ensure a minimum level of exercise (because honestly, more of my walking happens indoors and at work than it does outside, and I think I could boost that gradually).


Me, 32. DD, 8. DS, 6 (deceased).

D-Day was April 2012. Divorced Jul 2013. Moved ~1000 miles away (as the crow flies) Jul 2014.


Posts: 806 | Registered: Nov 2012 | From: Pacific Northwest
ideservebetter45
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Default  Posted: 7:51 PM, May 25th (Saturday)

I feel this way too.. sometimes I feel like a big loser..I feel sad. .I see my friends moving on doing family things. .I hate starting over

Posts: 150 | Registered: Sep 2012 | From: ideservebetter45
ProbableIceCream
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Default  Posted: 10:53 PM, May 25th (Saturday)

ideservebetter45, it is a little sad sometimes. I still feel a little cheated, when I'm completely honest with myself.

But it doesn't have to be that way forever.


Me, 32. DD, 8. DS, 6 (deceased).

D-Day was April 2012. Divorced Jul 2013. Moved ~1000 miles away (as the crow flies) Jul 2014.


Posts: 806 | Registered: Nov 2012 | From: Pacific Northwest
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