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knightsbff
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Content  Posted: 10:31 PM, May 26th (Sunday)

I have to stop and smell the roses for a moment...

This morning I shed silent tears because of the involuntary shudders my BH frequently has when we touch. He fights revulsion constantly because of what I did to us. I guess this morning I was being dragged along behind or under the rollercoaster.

Fast forward to this evening...

I was at the sink washing dishes when BH gave me a hug from behind, kissed me on the neck and told me he loves me. I'm a lucky girl.

I'm keeping this moment fresh in my mind for the next dip or plummet.


FWW 40's
D-day August 27, 2012
3 kids and 2 dogs

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tired girl
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Default  Posted: 10:57 PM, May 26th (Sunday)

Those moments are very special early on in R.

Even now, I find it hard to believe we are where we are. I never thought we would get here.

I am happy for you.


Me45 Him 45 Hardlessons DS 25,23,20
D Day 1/18/10 his 3/8/2012 mine
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." Eleanor Roosevelt

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Jrazz
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Default  Posted: 10:58 PM, May 26th (Sunday)


If life is just a series of ridiculous attempts to be alive, you're a hero. - J. Winger

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authenticnow
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Default  Posted: 5:41 AM, May 27th (Monday)


Take up your space (and do it well).

"That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt."


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Unagie
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Default  Posted: 6:28 AM, May 27th (Monday)

I'm happy for you.


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No longer together

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BaxtersBFF
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Default  Posted: 9:27 AM, May 27th (Monday)

Sounds like it was a great moment for knight too.


WH - 44
BW - gerrygirl

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burntashes
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Default  Posted: 2:08 PM, May 27th (Monday)

Thanks for the post, knightsbff. I was having a down moment today and your post reminded me of the same moments I had the last few days with my husband. It's good to remember that sad moments are just that, and they don't mean whole sad days if we're able to focus on the good and don't lose hope. I'm happy for you.


Me: WW/MH 30s Him: 40s 1 Daughter
LTA, not divorced with no R
I confessed PA 6/10. Detailed confession: 9/10. All the truth 9/11.

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