Well it has been over a year since everything started to come out. We have our good and bad days. We also just had our 12th anniversary in same week as the day of our d-day. We continue to work on our marriage on a daily bases.
Since the last time I was on here we moved into our new home. It has been a blessing to have something stable in our life. My husbandís grandfather past in March and that caused so many more problems. There were more issues with his family and things got so bad that he has decided not to even try to mend the relationship with his parents. Things were also bad because that was the first time we have been in the same place as the other man. I made sure that there was no contact with him in anyway. But things got bad when my husband saw his dad talking to the other man and never spoke with him. This just made our situation worse because then we started arguing again. But we seemed to turn a corner.
We are communicating more now than ever before in our relationship. But we still are having problems. He always brings up my affair on every turn which is hard. When he asks me how I feel, I tell him everything because I want to be honest with him. I am in a much better place on how I feel about and with him. But he says he doesnít know whether he believes me. I continue telling and showing him what I feel. I am not sure where things will go from here. My husband continues to try and compare himself to the other man. I have try to tell him that he is who I want but I understand that it is hard because I have turned to someone else.
Things for me are hard because the more he brings up my affair the harder it is for me to get rid of the thoughts. I am using different techniques to help with getting this man out of my head. For me I know where my heart is and where I want to be. Other than see him that one time, we have managed not to have any contact with each other. In my small time it is a huge accomplishment. My only problem is that he email it was about important information on the school system. I did not respond and deleted it. I want to tell my husband but he is in a dark place right now. I am at a loss at this moment.
I hope we can continue to work on things but I just donít know because he is moving more way from me on a daily bases.BH:35
Married: 12 years, together for 14
D-DAY: May 14,2012
My D-Day: May 10,2012(the day OM told his W)
2 Children: 9 and 7
Life is an everyday struggle, it is how you choose to react to every situation that will guide your future.