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FieldsOfLavender
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Default  Posted: 9:33 PM, June 16th (Sunday)

STBX and our child went canoeing today. I joined them afterward for lunch. We walked around a little then came home to go to the community pool. STBX played with our child and her friends at the pool, then we all went out to dinner. When we came home, he did the normal night time routine with our child and while I was reading to her and putting our child to bed, he came home, he started to pack some necessities. Most of his stuff is still in our house.

For all of the day except the packing, it was as if our life had been rewound to 1.5 years ago, before the deception started. It felt like maybe, he really didn't want to leave and wanted to stay. He even wanted to stay at our house last night because his new place didn't have furniture and he wasn't feeling well. I allowed that. I'm sad and crying but not yet as deeply sad and devastated as I thought I would be.


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Williesmom
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Default  Posted: 9:37 PM, June 16th (Sunday)

I'm sorry. For your own sanity, you need to create distance between you and him.

He wants to stay at your house? Too bad. He chose this path, he needs to walk it.

Anything else is bullshit and not fair to you.


You can stuff your sorries in a sack, mister. -George Costanza
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SBB
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Default  Posted: 7:25 AM, June 17th (Monday)

^^THIS.

(((FieldsOfLavender))) Limbo was hell. Please don't stay to long.

Detaching was incredibly painful but absolutely necessary. It always is.


Buzz- The word you are searching for is 'Space-Ranger.'
Woody- The word I'm searching for, I can't say, because there are Pre-school toys here.

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nowiknow23
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Default  Posted: 9:44 AM, June 17th (Monday)

He even wanted to stay at our house last night because his new place didn't have furniture and he wasn't feeling well.
Poor baby.

Honey - DETACH. For the sake of your sanity and your child's.

He made his choices. Those choices have consequences. Stop saving him from those consequences. Stop cushioning his fall. Stop giving him a soft place to land. He wants out? He's out. Period.

And no more "shiny happy family" days. They confuse the kids and crush the BS's soul. Trust us on this one.


You can call me NIK

"Sometimes it takes a good fall to know where you really stand."
-Hayley Williams


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FieldsOfLavender
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Default  Posted: 9:42 PM, June 17th (Monday)

His apartment is close by. The plan for a few months is that he will join us for dinner every night so that the separation will not be too much of a shock to dd. I admit it helps me to ease into it, too.

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TrustNoOne
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Default  Posted: 10:16 PM, June 17th (Monday)

FieldsOfLavender - God bless you. This isn't easy, no matter the path you choose.

I do worry for you that this slow seperation will create (or elongate) the sadness and semi-dependency you have on your STBX.

Sometimes prolonged weening is worse than cold-turkey, rip the band-aid off pain and loneliness.

I am fairly certain there is no "right" answer...just the one that is right for you; which may or may not match the collective well-intentioned wisdom of the SI masses.

(((((((FieldsOfLavender))))))

[This message edited by TrustNoOne at 10:17 PM, June 17th (Monday)]


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Default  Posted: 11:15 PM, June 17th (Monday)

Make no mistake - all of this is to alliviate his guilt and will keep your wounds open and bleeding or far longer than they need to be.

You cannot control the outcome but you can control how bad this needs to get.

I for one could not stand to be in his presence knowing he had straight come from OWs bed. I would not put myself nor my children through that. Kids pick up on our stress and putting myself through that would be to their detriment.

You know yourself best so perhaps this is the right course of action for you. For me - no fucking way, not even when I still yearned for him.


Buzz- The word you are searching for is 'Space-Ranger.'
Woody- The word I'm searching for, I can't say, because there are Pre-school toys here.

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Must Survive
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Default  Posted: 12:21 AM, June 18th (Tuesday)

What Strongbutbroken said.


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WS: Just a squished bug on the window of my life!
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