User Topic: Anyone in fake R, like me?
Member # 38924
Default  Posted: 6:08 PM, June 19th (Wednesday)

What a douche. I'll just start there. Ef him and his OW. Ef him and spending all our money. Ef him while I paid the bills. Ef him while I worked 12 hour days to to provide medical benefits for kids bc he couldn't! Ef him for sleeping in hung over. Ef him for not loving me. At. all. Ef him for loving himself more than our newborn child. Ef him and crashing our cars. Ef him and his daily lies. Ef him at being an asshole bc he was guilty of cheating. Ef him for robbing me of the 3 years that I can never get back. Ef him for being infatuated with slutty tramps over and over again. FUCK R! ahhhh, I feel a thousand times better just admitting that to myself. Someone helped me get here.

Thanks, Rebreather.

I defenitly don't belong in R. I saw everyone there trying to be strong and work it out. I wanted so bad to be there, too. But, it's not real. I don't want him. I'm over him. He already broke my heart, stepped on it and shattered it to a million pieces. I'm not ready to forgive just yet... I told myself give it a year to decide if REAL R or not. We're both working on IC/MC so we can say we gave it a shot. I'm almost there! I have 4 more months to go. I'm so excited. :)

He's doing everything right, but I just don't want him anymore. I've been doing 180, but it's backfiring, he wants me more. I just don't give a shit about him.

[This message edited by libertyrocks at 6:15 PM, June 19th (Wednesday)]

Me-BW 36. STBXH-35,Recovering Alcoholic, M6yrs T13. Boys 2 & 4 1/2.
DDay #1 Nov,2012. 1 1/2 year false R & TT. 10 OW PA's 1LTA (W lied to) 3 years.
S Nov, 2013 again Jan,2014
Filed for D Feb,2014.

Posts: 962 | Registered: Apr 2013 | From: So Cal, baby. :)
Member # 31528
Default  Posted: 9:23 PM, June 19th (Wednesday)


Posts: 35915 | Registered: Mar 2011
Member # 37190
Default  Posted: 9:26 PM, June 19th (Wednesday)


If it walks like a duck and quacks like a duck - it's not a fluffy pink unicorn squirting liquid rainbows, complete with pots of gold out of it's ass.

Posts: 769 | Registered: Oct 2012 | From: Nowhere pretty
Member # 34262
Default  Posted: 9:32 PM, June 19th (Wednesday)

Sounds like it was a deal breaker for you and that's okay.


Me: BS 45
Her: fWS 48 (same sex partner)
Together: 18 years now (both MDs)
OW: meh so what 40s PhD
DD1: 10/30/11EA; DD2: 11/10/11 Had ONS; TT until 12/26/11; broke NC 6/12; NC again 7/12; R-ish

Posts: 2243 | Registered: Dec 2011 | From: Great Southwest
Member # 37154
Default  Posted: 4:56 AM, June 20th (Thursday)


Dday -9/24/2012

Posts: 1763 | Registered: Oct 2012 | From: northeast
Member # 38141
Default  Posted: 6:47 AM, June 20th (Thursday)


ME - Betrayed Spouse
Him - Wayward spouse
Not sure, but trying I guess.

Posts: 477 | Registered: Jan 2013
Topic Posts: 6