User Topic: Small Epiphany
Must Survive
Member # 34533
Default  Posted: 2:38 PM, July 22nd (Monday)

Just a little ah ha moment yesterday. I am self employed. I can work/not work when I want. Weekends can be a busy time for me if I chose them to be. Since the A and the immediate removal of STBXH from house, I have tried to stay around home more on weekends for my son (DS16). Not that he "needs" me, but I have not wanted to work and be away for a lot just because.

Anyhoo, I do feel as though he is getting some processing done and I feel better about being out working a few hours during the weekend. This Sunday I had no work, but was really antzy. You know I want to do something, but what, these 4 walls making me crazy etc. I used to feel this way when STBXH was with us. I would work hours during the week, he would too. Weekend came and I would want to do something. Him not so much. So if he didn't do something I would just work more (great for my bank account).

It hit me yesterday. I was bored and I wanted to go do something. AND I COULD! At 4pm I loaded up my kayak and headed to the lake. Home 3 hours later. I would never have done that if STBXH was still living with us.

A little yea me!

WS: Just a squished bug on the window of my life!
Divorcing, STBXH is engaged/living with OW#3

They have a choice: they can live in my new world, or they can die in their old one." Daenerys Targaryen

Posts: 786 | Registered: Jan 2012 | From: Must Survive
Member # 32554
Default  Posted: 2:56 PM, July 22nd (Monday)


Me = BS (Stay-at-home-mom)
Him = EX-d out (abusive troglodyte NPD SA)
3 tween-aged kids
Together 20 years
D-Day: Memorial Weekend 2011

Posts: 9827 | Registered: Jun 2011 | From: USA
Member # 37215
Default  Posted: 2:57 PM, July 22nd (Monday)

Isn't these "small" epiphany's wonderful?!?! Thank you for sharing as it allowed me to reflect on how different but better life is without stbx.

Me (BS): 43 Children: DD 19, DS 15
Divorced September 30, 2014
"It's always darkest before the dawn ..."

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