It''''s not quite what you were asking about but my xWH would buy illegal testosterone overseas and have it shipped to him so he could put on muscle.
The result? His already perverted sex drive went through the roof to my detriment bc I hated sex with him (as in came to loathe bc he was so rough & selfish), he did indeed put on so much muscle that he tore his tricep training, an injury I''''m told is common when muscle mass outstrips the bone structures ability to hold it, & his already nasty temper became worse meaning he''''d have angry outbursts at inappropriate times & places.
IMHO sex between a loving couple is an important part of a relationship but not at the expense of pharmaceuticals to create. I''''m sure others disagree but having been on the receiving end of such abuse, improving a sex life would neve be worth the risk to me.
But please don''''t blame yourself. You could not have known the risks. Tv is full of ads about low T, how it''''s a bad bad thing and must be resolved. Plus, extra T aside, cheating is still the purview of the super selfish, again, not your fault.
[This message edited by cayc at 10:16 PM, July 25th, 2013 (Thursday)]