My husband is so up and down with what he wants. One minute he is saying that he loves me more than anything and if others can get through it, then he certainly can, and the next minute he's asking if I will cope with the children by myself if he moves out. I'm booking us into MC for tomorrow afternoon, but he's not even sure he wants to fix things. He says that he doesn't want to forget about it because that is like giving me the green light to cheat again. Which of course is categorically NOT the case. What should I do? Go ahead with the very expensive MC and hope that he takes it seriously or continue as we are?
The lowdown is that I met my ex in a public place and we dtd for around a minute before I ran away crying and saying that I love my husband. I of course completely cut contact since then. I confessed to it a week ago and since life has of course been hell. I love my husband dearly, and while mental illness doesn't condone my actions, I truly believe it's played a big role. Anyway, my full story is on my profile if anybody is interested in reading it.
I LOVE my husband with my whole heart and I couldn't possibly be more remorseful, but I just don't know what to do???? :'(