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Flatlined123
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Member # 35862
Default  Posted: 5:54 AM, August 10th (Saturday)

H has been switched to midnight shift. He came home this morning and we took advantage of no one being up yet

Afterwards, my mind just started rolling with one thought after another. Funny thing was he sighed and said what a great way to start the weekend, and I thought "No, you shitbird, it isn't with these thoughts running through my head."

I can't seem, even after being at 4 years out, to get the thoughts of he did this or he did that with her out of my head.

We've talked about it so many times that I don't even mention it anymore. He would if I wanted to, but what's the use? So I just suck it up and deal with it.

What a shitty way to start the weekend.


Me: BS 43
H : WS 46
DD #1 7-11-08
DD#2 8-21-09 same OW, A never ended.
Started R in 9-09, but I didn't feelTRUE R started until 12-09 when the fog really lifted due to a medical condition with me.
Every day gets a little better.

Posts: 580 | Registered: Jun 2012
blakesteele
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Member # 38044
Default  Posted: 6:02 AM, August 10th (Saturday)

Hang in there...we are experiencing similar issues. Sex was fun at some point in our marriage.....now we have soo much heavy stuff tied to this it is.....well....not fun.

Mind movies suck....


ME: 42 BH
SHE: 38 EA
Married: 15 years
Together: 17 years
D/Day 9-10-12
NC: 10-25-12
NC: Broken early November 2012 by 1 email to OM...OM did NOT respond.
2 girls; 7 and 10
Fear is payments on debts you have not yet incurred...may never incur.

Posts: 2657 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: Central Missouri
LosferWords
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Member # 30369
Default  Posted: 4:31 PM, August 10th (Saturday)

I'm sorry you are still dealing with mind movies, Flatlined.

Have these mind movies been occurring steadily ever since d-day, or do you go through phases?

I seem to go through phases with mine, and I'm hoping they don't come back as intensely as they used to.

Hang in there. Hope your weekend gets better.


"The hero of my tale, whom I love with all the power of my soul, whom I have tried to portray in all his beauty, who has been, is, and will be beautiful, is Truth." - Leo Tolstoy

Posts: 4466 | Registered: Dec 2010
Flatlined123
Member
Member # 35862
Default  Posted: 9:46 PM, August 10th (Saturday)

The thoughts come and go. I think it's because we haven't been spending as much timisn'gether with the schedule change.

I just hate that I let OW still get in my head. I hate that what once was just ours isn't and never will be anymore.

I want my freakin' fairytale back!


Me: BS 43
H : WS 46
DD #1 7-11-08
DD#2 8-21-09 same OW, A never ended.
Started R in 9-09, but I didn't feelTRUE R started until 12-09 when the fog really lifted due to a medical condition with me.
Every day gets a little better.

Posts: 580 | Registered: Jun 2012
Topic Posts: 4