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User Topic: self distructive behavior
Member # 21851
Default  Posted: 9:58 PM, August 24th (Saturday)

I indulged in some self destructive behavior last nigh. I feel worse than ever this morning. I gotta get out of this funk. Im down 20# in three weeks. I can't make a decision to save my ass, and im not interested in anything. My attitude sucks.

"Pain is weakness leaving the body"

Reformed BS 39 xWW 34
Two kids 5 and 2

Posts: 952 | Registered: Dec 2008 | From: NW
Member # 27035
Default  Posted: 10:03 PM, August 24th (Saturday)

Do you have a counselor that you're working with? It sounds like you could use some help. My other suggestion is to post in the Betrayed Men thread in I Can Relate. Lot of smart men in there.

"On particularly rough days when I'm sure I can't possibly endure, I like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100% and that's pretty good."

Posts: 5243 | Registered: Jan 2010 | From: Midwest
Member # 19595
Default  Posted: 11:03 PM, August 24th (Saturday)

It's a hole that seems to keep getting deeper.
Losing so much weight isn't good. Maybe time to see DR.
Big Hugs, we all go down this path somewhere on our paths. No easy answer to get out of it, sorry.

It's my life now, my choices, my mistakes to make and my victories to celebrate. His choices made me free of liars and betrayers in my life. That is priceless.

Posts: 20382 | Registered: May 2008 | From: Closer to where I want to be..
Member # 35258
Default  Posted: 6:47 AM, August 25th (Sunday)

Consider this your bottoming out. You''ve self destructed. There is nowhere to go but up from here. You don''t want to feel like this again, remember that the next time you are tempted. Hang in there. We''ve all been there.

Me BH - 33
3 beautiful young children
DDay 12/13/11

Posts: 650 | Registered: Apr 2012 | From: Michigan
Member # 39669
Default  Posted: 7:44 AM, August 25th (Sunday)


Wants nothing to do with our daughter
No Contact

Posts: 75 | Registered: Jun 2013 | From: Newwhere
Member # 5929
Default  Posted: 9:06 AM, August 25th (Sunday)

The worst thing you can do right now is to get down on yourself.

It's good that you realize that the behavior was self destructive. But dont' beat yourself up!

Keep calm and carry on.

Posts: 49482 | Registered: Nov 2004 | From: Minneapolis
Member # 10310
Default  Posted: 11:43 AM, August 25th (Sunday)

Do you have some IRLwho can help you be accountable for healthy behavior? (((TLK)))

Real love is a CHOICE, NOT a feeling...

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