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BeautifulEmpty
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Default  Posted: 12:40 PM, August 26th (Monday)

I do not dream much that I know of. I have phases but its not my general thing.
Recently, I've had three dreams about WS and OW. I just woke up from one and it leaves me so sad and takes me back to some places I don't want to go. I mean, the feelings these remind me of are bad and sick enough, I feel hopeless with us and like I need to just divorce instead of holding my breath forever.
But they are just dreams...unfortunately based in solid, awful reality.
I'm a bit over a year out and these just started. When WS and I were in the midst of his debacle, I was always crying myself to sleep in absolute agony and he would be snoring away next to me. OW delighted in reiterating that for me and then calling me an idiot.
I'm not really asking any questions...just talking. I'm surprised after all these years that my eyes are even capable of crying still.

[This message edited by BeautifulEmpty at 12:41 PM, August 26th (Monday)]


Me: 42 BS
Him: 38 ws
Ow: 44 head case, no obs
5 DD's: 21, 18, 17, 15, 10
Last D-day: August 2012 with lots of very blurry lines.

Posts: 242 | Registered: Mar 2013 | From: Washington State
LosferWords
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Member # 30369
Default  Posted: 1:08 PM, August 26th (Monday)

((BeautifulEmpty))

Posts: 6533 | Registered: Dec 2010
Lonelygirl10
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Member # 39850
Default  Posted: 1:57 PM, August 26th (Monday)

I've had some dreams lately too. There's two versions of myself, and I can see WS having sex with me and then having sex with OW. One version of me is screaming at myself to stop, but the other version of me just goes on having sex with him. I woke up once with my pillow wet from crying in my sleep.

(((((hugs)))))


29 Bgf
Dday: April 2013
Relationship ended: January 2014

Posts: 1103 | Registered: Jul 2013
BeautifulEmpty
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Member # 38763
Default  Posted: 2:04 PM, August 26th (Monday)

(((LonelyGirl)))
I feel you :/


Me: 42 BS
Him: 38 ws
Ow: 44 head case, no obs
5 DD's: 21, 18, 17, 15, 10
Last D-day: August 2012 with lots of very blurry lines.

Posts: 242 | Registered: Mar 2013 | From: Washington State
Topic Posts: 4