Topic: Well that sucked
Member # 38377
| Posted: 2:05 PM, August 29th (Thursday)|
I had to clean up my personal computer for work reasons and was getting everything important on my external hard drive including documents and pictures. I was trying to get all the pictures organized by year, and man did it suck seeing all those old pictures while copying and moving them around.. Wedding pictures, baby pictures, vacations, friends, family.. It all feels like such a waste now. What a waste of time and energy I spent on this guy. Not sure if I wanna be mad or sad, but I think I'm gonna go crawl up in a ball on my bed.. Hopefully my cat joins me.. I'm so lame..
BW~ 34, Two DS~ 10 and 6
D-Day 9/2012, False R/S 10/2012, Filed D 11/2012, Anxiously awaiting D 20??
"I'm not broken, just bent, and I will learn to love again." ~ Me, inspired by Pink
Posts: 1111 | Registered: Feb 2013
Member # 33226
| Posted: 2:10 PM, August 29th (Thursday)|
((((((BG)))))) You are not the least bit lame. I'm sorry you are hurting, honey.
You can call me NIK
“The most difficult times for many of us are the ones we give ourselves.”
― Pema Chödrön
Posts: 19231 | Registered: Aug 2011 | From: "Is this heaven?" ;-)
Member # 31528
| Posted: 3:54 PM, August 29th (Thursday)|
You aren't lame. It's natural to look through pictures and feel that way. Years ago, I googled my x, found an old pic, and saved it to my computer. Looking at it made me feel blah, empty, hollow. In time, it gets better. Sending you strength and hope for a better tomorrow.
There are still good times to be had.
Were together 7+yrs, Ended R.
Posts: 26426 | Registered: Mar 2011
Member # 36134
| Posted: 4:18 PM, August 29th (Thursday)|
Not lame processing this journey. Past memories are a trigger, give yourself the gifts of time and forgiveness. It'll get better.
I trust you is a better compliment than I love you, because you may not trust the person you love, but you can always love the person you trust. - Unknown
Relationships are like sharing a book, it doesn't work if you're not on the same page.
Posts: 3407 | Registered: Jul 2012 | From: Florida
Member # 35229
| Posted: 4:21 PM, August 29th (Thursday)|
I haven't looked through old photos on my hard drive but I have deleted all of the pics on FB. Man, that was rough. I couldn't click delete fast enough. I wrapped myself up in my arms and wept the rest of that night.
Unfortunately even photos of me and my girls when they were little were all taken by him. I tried to think of 'me' and them in the moments captured but thoughts of who took the photo used to intrude in on those memories.
A year on this road - I haven't thought of it until I read your post.
It gets easier, I promise.
I'm so sorry BG. I know right where you are. Be gentle with yourself. It is OK to grieve.
“If things start happening, don't worry, don't stew, just go right along and you'll start happening too.” -Dr Seuss
Posts: 3544 | Registered: Apr 2012 | From: Australia
Member # 27035
| Posted: 8:42 PM, August 29th (Thursday)|
It's not lame at all. All my old stuff is sitting in a box. I was always going to scan in the old photos as a winter project and didn't get to it before D-day. I'm in no rush to go through them now because I know it will be hard and sad. I can put that off for another winter, nooo problem. So I'm lamer than you by far.
"On particularly rough days when I'm sure I can't possibly endure, I like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100% - and that's pretty good."
Posts: 4043 | Registered: Jan 2010 | From: Midwest
Member # 34697
| Posted: 9:03 PM, August 29th (Thursday)|
BG, it took me a long time to get to the box of pictures that I had stuffed in the back of the closet a few days after D-day...like a year. And it made me sad too when I finally pulled that box out and started sorting them. ((((BG))))
Posts: 3592 | Registered: Jan 2012 | From: Indiana
Member # 33581
| Posted: 10:29 PM, August 29th (Thursday)|
You are not lame. No lamer than any of us. It hurts. But it won't always hurt. The searing white hot agony will be reduced to sharp pain. The sharp pain will turn into a dull ache. And the dull ache will eventually be replaced by at the very most, slight melancholy.
And while you travel that path through the pain, we'll be here. Post whenever you feel the pain and we will rush in to hold your hand. Kind of like a labor coach.
Hang in there sweetie.
If Happy Ever After did exist, I would still be holding you like this.
All those fairly tales are full of shit.
One more fucking love song I'll be sick. ~ Maroon 5
Posts: 855 | Registered: Oct 2011 | From: Kailua-Kona, HI
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