I just read your story, sullymeishadomi. It took about 25 minutes and was filled with angst and pain I could not even fathom to understand.
Do you have any family? I want to make this really clear to you. What you are living through now is everyone's worst nightmare. I just don't understand why you are doing this not only to yourself but your kids?!
Obviously I am not telling you anything no-one has told you before. But don't you think it's time to stand up and rolemodel to your kids that you can't be treated like shit in a relationship? I just can't fathom this at all, how you are allowing someone to DESTROY your life like this.
A day without taking action is a day without making your life any better. Who cares who was in your office at the end of the day? WHO CARES. You know days of our lives?
"like sand in the hourglass so is the days of our lives". Soon your kids will be getting older and will understand more, you are one step closer every day to dying as we all are. You are letting him DEFINE YOU. You need to actively redefine yourself.
Fuck if I was a little older, lived in the same country and had money. I would drag you to my house, rent free and let you get back on your feet.
I am absoloutly HORRIFIED by what i've read. Put on some bitch boots and if you can't live your life properly for you, do it at least for your kids!
p.s it took me ages to figure out how to put this picture in. I hope it clearly defines to you that you can always get more money (fuck i was in $11000 debt this year and it took me 6 months to pay it off, lots of 2 minute noodles)
But your time, and life is running out. You cannot get anymore, it is gone, poof