Shattered, I know what you mean. Ive had a lot of crap happen to me the last few years that I thought I had done something horrible in another life. Truth is, life is life and shit happens....even a big watery pile of shit.
Karmah? Im not so sure it exists partly because I know some really nasty people (wh, ow and others) and they lead charmed lives. I see it this way: I need to focus on my life bc its the one im living. If im living someone elses life, something is wrong. I have to decide what to do with my life.
Personally, I think im at a crossroads. I have to make a decision to either be miserable and wallow in my misery or make some changes. What will those changes be? Is it something that will make me happy?
Part of me also wonders if in wishing for karmah so one will feel better that someone got their upcommance. But how happy would that make the wisher?