Pippi and NIK,
Thanks for your insights. Lord knows I don't want her back. She turned into someone I do not want to know and would never choose to meet now.
I do wish that she was gone from my life. But I live (and got divorced) in a pernanent alimony state so she will be attached to me (more like my bank accounts) forever.
And, after my kids are more on their way (our daughter is a high school sophomore), I will leave here to start over, probably alone so it will be a new start.... At 65 or so.
Socially, I do get out some. But many of my friendships and business acquaintances began to fade as the divorce unfolded and the realities of being a single parent, solo consultant, housekeeper and continuing court events took their toll.
Progress with the IC? We are still coping with depression and working just to keep me from falling further in. But there are little goals I pursue and strategies I use that do help me cope. Progress though is elusive.
It's good to hear that this does end. I am a man with doubts now and getting through this would be among my lifes's greater blessings.
Thanks for reading and more importantly, writing back. Please continue. It helps. "I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself. A bird will fall frozen dead from a bough without ever having felt sorry for itself." D. H. Lawrence
Her: WW/57 Me: BS/63 24yrs M
3 great kids, now 22, 20, 17 b,b,g
D-Day 8/14/08, D 1/13/11