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Crash!
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Default  Posted: 3:49 AM, September 13th (Friday)

A quick update for anyone who remembers the last guy I was "seeing" (read - being kissed by while drunk mostly). We had a weekend sports tournament, he was kind of a jerk, I cried a bunch and then my friend told me I was being obsessive and I needed to snap out of it.

It's at the point now where it was my birthday a few days ago, and I completely ignored his text. Next...

And I'm kind of liking someone else. So far, he seems quite different than this last guy. He's open about his feelings. He told me he likes me, took me out for a birthday dinner and then came out to my big birthday drinks event after work and met some of my friends. He's introduced me to a friend of his, and we've spent time just hanging out at his house watching TV. He says nice things - about how I look and how I act and I'm not often guessing at what's going on with him, which is really great.

Where we're up to so far is we see each other pretty often. The first few times I spent the night at his it was just that it got so late when we were talking that it wasn't a good idea to walk home and I made him stay fully clothed and we just cuddled till really late. Things have gotten progressively more physical, but only after I asked him if he was hooking up with anyone else, and if he was intending to. Both were the answers I wanted to hear.

He knows about the ex, both the cheating and the other bad stuff that went on, and he was nothing but sweet and lovely, and said (without my asking) that he has every intention of being really open so I have no need to worry or wonder. I don't want to make him pay for exs mistakes and am going to try my best not to do so.. but that was really, really nice to hear as well. The other night, totally unprompted, he said he wants me to feel safe in his arms...

We haven't put a label on it yet. We've really only known each other a month, and he says he feels like it's too early, even though things have been going really fast in other aspects - meeting friends, spending loads of time together, being in touch lots throughout the day. That 5% made me a bit sad, even though I know it's not a good idea to rush things just for the sake of it. And overall, he's open and makes plans for the future with me so I feel pretty comfortable that things are heading in a decent direction.

But, of course, I'm a bit nervous. I'm actually getting a bit close to him, which is a new one for me. We recently had sex for the first time (after a nice chat about exclusivity and him saying he's still going to be there in the morning and nothing's going to change between us - he's really into me, etc etc) and it was really nice. And also, I think our contact has slowed down slightly (which is normal, I think, because we were talking an awful lot!) and I'm just suddenly a tiny bit nervous even though he's not really given me a reason to be. Is that just a new-relationship thing? I'm kind of scared of it fizzling because it's been so awesome but quick so far.

I like him, and he's said he likes me. And more importantly, he acts like he likes me. I'm just waiting to see what happens next...

[This message edited by Crash! at 3:58 AM, September 13th (Friday)]


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nowiknow23
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Default  Posted: 12:46 PM, September 13th (Friday)

Sounds like a good start, Crash.


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Pass
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Default  Posted: 5:32 PM, September 13th (Friday)


Loyal spouse: Me; Disloyal spouse: The Princess
Two sons: Now 11 and 14
DDay: Nov 15, 2012
Separated: Mar 2, 2013 after married 17 years, now divorcing!

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better4me
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Default  Posted: 5:40 PM, September 13th (Friday)

I think the nervousness is just a part of the whole new relationship thing. Enjoy and best of luck to you!!


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