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pizzalover
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Member # 38336
Default  Posted: 6:52 PM, September 23rd (Monday)

This is how I feel today.

Full of Grace
Sarah McLachlan

the winter here's cold, and bitter
it's chilled us to the bone
we haven't seen the sun for weeks
too long too far from home
I feel just like I'm sinking
and I claw for solid ground
I'm pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
oh darkness I feel like letting go

if all of the strength and all of the courage
come and lift me from this place
I know I can love you much better than this
full of grace
full of grace
my love

so it's better this way, I said
having seen this place before
where everything we say and do
hurts us all the more
its just that we stayed, too long
in the same old sickly skin
I'm pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
oh darkness I feel like letting go

if all of the strength
and all of the courage
come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
full of grace
full of grace
my love


Repulsed daily by my actions

Me - WW 39
Him - BH 39 (mpb1974)
2 Furrbabies - sweet cats

Met - 8/13/99
Started dating - 9/11/99
Moved in together - 3/03
Engaged - 6/5/09
Married - 8/21/10
D-Day - 1/24/13
Affair started 5/09


Posts: 404 | Registered: Feb 2013 | From: PA
pizzalover
Member
Member # 38336
Default  Posted: 6:55 PM, September 23rd (Monday)

I don't feel suicidal. Just very low.


Repulsed daily by my actions

Me - WW 39
Him - BH 39 (mpb1974)
2 Furrbabies - sweet cats

Met - 8/13/99
Started dating - 9/11/99
Moved in together - 3/03
Engaged - 6/5/09
Married - 8/21/10
D-Day - 1/24/13
Affair started 5/09


Posts: 404 | Registered: Feb 2013 | From: PA
Joanh
Member
Member # 39146
Default  Posted: 8:59 PM, September 23rd (Monday)

Wow and yes I have heard this song and yes. I have been there too, many times just last Saturday in Fact and thankfully those here :) Thankyou again, help me through.
WE ar going to have these bad days. I know they are hard and they don't want to end. They will and they can. Love youself no one else can.

And being in this pace of darkness can driv you crazier than where were in the middle of our A's. It feels alone and crazy.
Tomorrow is another day. One day at a time one night at a time. MAn I hate that word. Time!! its a four letter word to me now.

Just know I'm thinking about you and feel for you.


BH 39
WW 43
D day November 9, 2012
3 children 22, 8, 6
Just....

Posts: 406 | Registered: Apr 2013
Aubrie
Member
Member # 33886
Default  Posted: 9:02 PM, September 23rd (Monday)

I can relate. Must be something in the water. Sorry you''re having a down day.


Me - FWW * Him - QuietStand

"Courage is being scared to death and saddling up anyway." - J. Wayne

"What if I fall?" Oh but my darling, what if you fly?


Posts: 6165 | Registered: Nov 2011 | From: South, Y'all!
pizzalover
Member
Member # 38336
Default  Posted: 6:54 PM, September 24th (Tuesday)

Thanks. Feeling somewhat better today.


Repulsed daily by my actions

Me - WW 39
Him - BH 39 (mpb1974)
2 Furrbabies - sweet cats

Met - 8/13/99
Started dating - 9/11/99
Moved in together - 3/03
Engaged - 6/5/09
Married - 8/21/10
D-Day - 1/24/13
Affair started 5/09


Posts: 404 | Registered: Feb 2013 | From: PA
Topic Posts: 5