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Arnold01
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Default  Posted: 9:13 PM, September 23rd (Monday)

Tonight fWH and I were unpacking some boxes from our move this summer. I came across his Valentine's Day card to me from February 2013, in which he wrote how lucky he was to have me as his wife and his best friend, and how much he loved me. Yet two months later he was having an affair, lying to my face, and accusing me of insecurity and paranoia and generally being pathetic.

I laughed at the note in the card (yes, actually laughed out loud in front of him) and read it to him. He insisted that every word of it was true and still is today.

That's lovely and I'm sure that now, he genuinely remembers it that way. What he forgets is how "I'm not in love with you" and "I am IN LOVE with her" snuck in there on D-Day in June. If I was his love and best friend in February, how come by D-Day the only thing he could say was that the magic had been gone for years, that our marriage wasn't anything great, etc? I mean, really...YEARS? Were we in the same marriage?

The optimist in me believes that he's fundamentally a loving and decent human being who was emotionally broken and as a result made some horrifically bad choices. Still, there's another side of me that can only laugh (as it's better than crying) at how ridiculous the whole thing is when I remember the things he said when I first discovered the affair.

I never ceased to be amazed by how our minds can contort things!


D-Day: June 2013 discovered two-month EA/PA
NC established: August 2013
Reconciling

Posts: 117 | Registered: Jul 2013
AFrayedKnot
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Member # 36622
Default  Posted: 6:11 AM, September 24th (Tuesday)

(((Arnold01)))

That fog and compartmentalization are strong forces. Its good that you can look back with some sense of humor. I just shake my head at the "I always loved you" comments. They are so ridiculous but so true at the same time.


BS 39
fWS 36 (SurprisinglyOkay)
DD DS
A whole bunch of shit that got a lot worse before it got better.
"Knowing is half the battle"

Posts: 2527 | Registered: Aug 2012
StillStanding1
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Member # 40144
Default  Posted: 6:49 AM, September 24th (Tuesday)

It's just amazing to me how similarly so many WSs behave throughout this A nightmare. I'm so glad I found this site, so I can see that my WHs actions and words are by no means unique. I wish my WH would read here and see that what he thinks he's found with AP isnt all that unique either and actually quite common.

You sound like you're doing remarkably well so soon after Dday! Good for you. Keep laughing when you can. It's good for the soul!

Edited for typos

[This message edited by StillStanding1 at 6:50 AM, September 24th (Tuesday)]


Me: 40s BS, Him: 40s WH
M 21 yrs - 3 teens
LTA = 2+ yrs, Dday = 2/10/13, he moved out, he officially moved back in 1/25/14 and our work continues...

Posts: 633 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: MidWest
Merlin
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Member # 30221
Default  Posted: 8:03 AM, September 24th (Tuesday)

After D_Day as our marriage fell apart, my former WW re-wrote out marriage all the back to our honeymoon.

We'd been marked coming up to 25 years at that time.

It might have been funny if our marriage and family was not being flushed.


"I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself. A bird will fall frozen dead from a bough without ever having felt sorry for itself." D. H. Lawrence

Her: WW/57 Me: BS/63 24yrs M
3 great kids, now 22, 20, 17 b,b,g
D-Day 8/14/08, D 1/13/11


Posts: 1164 | Registered: Nov 2010 | From: East Coast
WhiteCarrera
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Member # 29126
Default  Posted: 8:09 AM, September 24th (Tuesday)

This brings back memories -- My wife's affair started on a work trip two days before Father's Day. She returned home on Friday, and on Sunday gave me the most loving card (very common from her).

Six weeks later was D-Day, and I put dates and places together. It's amazing the lies they tell to cover their backsides. She's barely written in a card since, because she knows how it affects me. We're still together and working every day, but it's just one of the things we've lost as a result of her affair.


If I want recovery, then I must allow for it to actually happen.
Is it possible that I actually do have all the truth now?

me - husband A46
her - wife A42
Married 17 years
D-Day August 2, 2009
3 kids 11, 13, and 15


Posts: 263 | Registered: Jul 2010 | From: Midwest
sailorgirl
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Member # 38162
Default  Posted: 10:50 AM, September 24th (Tuesday)

Arnold, I hear you. You know those studies about eyewitness testimony being unreliable? That's what I kept thinking about when fWH was ilybinilwy. Memory is so malleable.

It actually helped me to read about memory distortion and how common it is. Basically, memories change every time we recall them. When fWH was in the A, he was miserable, unstable and angry. So his mood alone was affecting his memories of our marriage.

It's like when you're really sick and you start remembering all the times you've been sick and it seems like you're always sick and you feel like life = suffering. Then, you get better and your outlook is suddenly bright. Or how all problems seem worse in the middle of the night. Or even how my lovely children suddenly become super annoying when I'm running late.

Of course, the reason WS's are unhappy in their marriage is because cheating liars don't tend to be blissful when confronted with their scumminess. But it seems easy for them to blame their unhappiness on us, in the present and eventually extending back through the past as they retrieve and doctor their memories.

fWH actually got to the point where he said to me, "I can't think of one good thing about this marriage." It was like he had brainwashed himself. You do have to laugh at the absurdity!

One good thing is that a remorseful WS can reverse the revisionist history. I read a suggestion for rebuilding couples to come up with a Top Ten highlights list together with marriage memories. In fact, I figure we should use the suggestibility of memory to our advantage. Exaggerate the good points. Make the stories as sweet as we want them to be.


Married 14 years, three amazing kids
H had 17 month EA/PA
D-day 1/5/13
Reconcilling

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