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User Topic: First Big Step
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Member # 40805
Stop  Posted: 10:10 PM, October 2nd (Wednesday)

I started seeing a therapist. My first appointment was with her today. I didn't want to at first, but I really didn't have a choice. I needed to do something to help me get through all of this. I know that I have to get on with my life and start thinking about my H and what I did to him.

I wish I could do everything over again. There is no way that I would ever have an A. There is so much pain and hurt and the longer you're with someone, the more pain there is.

I feel sorry for my H. He didn't deserve this.

Posts: 16 | Registered: Sep 2013
Member # 21761
Default  Posted: 2:21 AM, October 3rd (Thursday)

How did the therapy appointment go?

"Feedback is the breakfast of champions." - Boris Becker

Posts: 6100 | Registered: Nov 2008 | From: California
Member # 38954
Default  Posted: 3:02 AM, October 3rd (Thursday)

Well done. Good first step. Keep taking these steps and steady progress will follow.

Posts: 70 | Registered: Apr 2013
Member # 36684
Default  Posted: 6:12 AM, October 3rd (Thursday)

Have you told your H yet?

FWS me 36 (recovering addict)
BS him 39 AFrayedKnot
Together 7 years
2 children

"Your secrets keep you sick"

Posts: 1134 | Registered: Sep 2012 | From: 221B
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Member # 40805
Default  Posted: 8:54 PM, October 3rd (Thursday)

My therapy appointment went very well. I really like my therapist. It was just really strange talking to someone about my A, but it did feel really good to get it all out.

It's feels so good to know that I can talk to someone. I will be seeing her once a week so I'm hoping that this will really help me get through this.

I have not told my H yet, but I will in time. I first need to get myself together because right now I'm a real mess.

So I hope by having a therapist now and by having all of you at SI, I will get better and feel better about everything. It will be extremely hard to do, but eventually I will tell my H.

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