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rachelc
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Default  Posted: 3:40 PM, October 6th (Sunday)

Yesterday, hubby and i travel to college football game, his alma mater against mine. It's 8 hours away from where we live so there are a sea of his color shirts- like 15k people, and about 250 ppl with my color shirts on.
Before the game we walk up and duwn the tailgating area and I have my coat on so I blend in. However I took it off to use the porta potty and had him hold it. Immediately after I get out there is a guy asking me to come to his tailgate because his buddy doesn't think he can get someone from the other team there. I keep walking towards hubby, grab him and say, hey, I found us a place to tailgate. We both go over there fur about two minutes, this guy is plowed, I have my hands all over hubby, say he's my other team buddy, turn down a beer while they talk and then I say I want to leave. I thought we were meeting a group to tailgate with, but this guy just corners us.

Later that night I ask hubby if I handled this situation respectfully. He blows up. Talk about how I had to be the only one with the other shirt on, tight jeans, high heels, talk to a guy, didn't realize its a hit, and most specifically, refer to hubby as my buddy. I am still looking for external validation and I need to show him I could get any guy. Says That I'm in denial about needing external validation...

I apologize for everything say I'm sorry I just thought I had found us a place to tailgate and talk about values, how hard it is to be rude to pppl but I need to do it anyway.

He says to stop apologizing. Just don't if it. He's scared and he's over-reacting now because he wished he would have 3.5 years ago.

I just keep my mouth shut. There is nothing I can do but get up the next day and try again. He is very loving to me today, says he doesn't want me to stop being in love with him.

I reassure him. But I'm very tired...

[This message edited by rachelc at 3:42 PM, October 6th (Sunday)]


his Dday: 2/10 but TT until 7/11
my Ddays: 1/12, 4/12 broken NC 12/12

me (WW/BS): 48
him: (BS/WH)52
4 kiddos in mid 20's

The conditions we face do not define us. They remind us of who we are and who we want to be.


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JustDesserts
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Default  Posted: 4:01 PM, October 6th (Sunday)

Setting aside your H's observations for a moment.

Being honest with yourself, do YOU feel you dressed inappropriately and provocatively in order to receive male attention and external validation?

Is "just keeping your mouth shut" something you feel is productive to your reconciliation?

I'm not challenging you here, just wondering what your answers are.

JD


2 year EA/PA. DDay 3/12. Broke NC 6/13 w/one stupid 5 line e-mail (which brought me to SI). Me: WH, 50. Her: BW, 49. Married 19 years. Two kids. Dog. Reconciling...together.

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rachelc
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Default  Posted: 4:10 PM, October 6th (Sunday)

I wanted to look nice. Hubby was on my arm the entire time. I'm thinking about this a lot. ... Not quite sure.

The keeping my mouth shut - he wanted me to stop apologizing so I did. I also wAnted to make sure he felt heard and I can interject too much at times.

At the end though, he asked me if he acted respectfully and I called him on looking at some chic's tits, which he denies...,

I ended up crying over all this misunderstanding - or is it all disrespect still? But we went to sleep that night holding each other.

Bottom line- we're both still scared.


his Dday: 2/10 but TT until 7/11
my Ddays: 1/12, 4/12 broken NC 12/12

me (WW/BS): 48
him: (BS/WH)52
4 kiddos in mid 20's

The conditions we face do not define us. They remind us of who we are and who we want to be.


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Default  Posted: 4:52 PM, October 6th (Sunday)

Feeling scared can't be fun.

Do you both feel like you're both keeping score? Allowing temporary "victories" and "see, I told you so's" and momentary upper hands?

Again, just curious.


2 year EA/PA. DDay 3/12. Broke NC 6/13 w/one stupid 5 line e-mail (which brought me to SI). Me: WH, 50. Her: BW, 49. Married 19 years. Two kids. Dog. Reconciling...together.

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rachelc
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Default  Posted: 5:16 PM, October 6th (Sunday)

I really don't think so on scorekeeping...,

I think we are both terrified. We can't be too vulnerable yet, fall head over heels in love again because we can't bear to be hurt. In any way.

I'm asking a very scary question here in that are we both just keeping our options open in case things go south? Not from my perspective, I just want to be with him... But if he's interested in others it just won't work. . I'm sure the same is true for him. I need to make sure my actions reflect this....

[This message edited by rachelc at 5:26 PM, October 6th (Sunday)]


his Dday: 2/10 but TT until 7/11
my Ddays: 1/12, 4/12 broken NC 12/12

me (WW/BS): 48
him: (BS/WH)52
4 kiddos in mid 20's

The conditions we face do not define us. They remind us of who we are and who we want to be.


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JustDesserts
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Default  Posted: 5:35 PM, October 6th (Sunday)

My thought is:

Tell him you only want him. And that you will not hurt him. Let your actions speak on that.

Tell him your fears about if he's interested in others, and being hurt. HIS actions need to speak on that.

My wife and I had date night Friday. She is a betrayed. She dressed chic/sexy and I felt so happy to be in her life. To have her believe in me and us. Flirting with her all night was great. Losing to her in pool, not great.

I hope you and your husband will get past your Catch-22 sounding, and terrifying state. The falling in love all over again thing for me has been so savory and nourishing that it's blown the aftertaste of the "stale affair kibble" I so eagerly gobbled up right out of my mouth. I'm no expert at the intricacies of reconciliation, but I feel that's a good sign.

I root for people here on R, in my heart, because hope for one is hope for all.

JD

[This message edited by JustDesserts at 5:36 PM, October 6th (Sunday)]


2 year EA/PA. DDay 3/12. Broke NC 6/13 w/one stupid 5 line e-mail (which brought me to SI). Me: WH, 50. Her: BW, 49. Married 19 years. Two kids. Dog. Reconciling...together.

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hardlessons
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Default  Posted: 9:36 AM, October 7th (Monday)

What happened was a guy showed you attention and out of all the things you and hubby could have done, you take him to the party with the guy who showed you attention. Didn't matter what you were wearing, THAT tailgate party should have been the last place you should have gone.

That's the step on boundaries that I am just getting. Taking into account W boundaries and including them in mine.. I get exactly where he was coming from and hopefully he doesn't rugsweep his feelings about it. Creates a cycle, ever feel like the same thing keeps repeating?


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Default  Posted: 9:43 AM, October 7th (Monday)

Ok, from someone who doesn't really tailgate or party. . .sounds like the guy was hitting on you. Now, once you went over you did the right thing with your hubby, but the whole "needing someone from the other team?" That makes no sense, and it seems unlikely he'd have asked if hubby had been standing there with you. Hence - it seems he was hitting on you.

Not sure these stranger/party-type situations are very marriage-friendly. That is just my view, though.


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Default  Posted: 10:11 AM, October 7th (Monday)

Rachel I agree with HL and bionic. You should have told your husband what the guy said and found somewhere else to go. Honestly I feel a certain way about others telling me how to dress but that's my personal hangup. You and your husband have had that discussion before and it seems like that compounded with the fact that you took him to the guy who was hitting on you did not help. You need to be more aware of the intentions others may have and view it from your husband's perspective as well.


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rachelc
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Default  Posted: 10:16 AM, October 7th (Monday)

Taking into account W boundaries and including them in mine.. I get exactly where he was coming from and hopefully he doesn't rugsweep his feelings about it

yes, you're all right. I'm glad I brought it up so we could talk about it... I knew something wasn't right....


his Dday: 2/10 but TT until 7/11
my Ddays: 1/12, 4/12 broken NC 12/12

me (WW/BS): 48
him: (BS/WH)52
4 kiddos in mid 20's

The conditions we face do not define us. They remind us of who we are and who we want to be.


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rachelc
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Default  Posted: 10:18 AM, October 7th (Monday)

You need to be more aware of the intentions others may have

I'm not sure why this is always a problem for me... but it would involve turning my thinking around where I interpret every sitution as "ok, what does this person want." That is.... diappointing, but probably the right thing to do. ugh.


his Dday: 2/10 but TT until 7/11
my Ddays: 1/12, 4/12 broken NC 12/12

me (WW/BS): 48
him: (BS/WH)52
4 kiddos in mid 20's

The conditions we face do not define us. They remind us of who we are and who we want to be.


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Default  Posted: 10:41 AM, October 7th (Monday)

I agree with what has been said, but I just wanted to say as a BS, I get VERY touchy about what my WH refers to me as...if he doesnt introduce me at all, or if he doesnt refer to me as his wife....

just my two cents..


BS(Me) - 32
WS(HUbbie) - 40
OW - 44 (a ugly, old, white trash horse faced Coworker)
Affair was 2 months long
3 kids - 5yr old, and twins 8 months
Dday - 12/25/12 (lots of signs before I should have seen)

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Default  Posted: 11:01 AM, October 7th (Monday)

turning my thinking around where I interpret every sitution as "ok, what does this person want."

I think in order for our boundaries to be firmly put in place, we must be aware of another's motives.

Equally important is asking, how is my BS going to feel about this? Does this make him feel safe?


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Default  Posted: 2:51 PM, October 7th (Monday)

Just some thoughts, some of which have already been expressed. Take them for what they're worth, as the perspective of just one male of the species. Your H may see things differently, especially since he's a BS and I'm not.

Later that night I ask hubby if I handled this situation respectfully.

Good for you for asking. It sounds as if it certainly needed to be discussed, and it sounds as if he might not have brought it up on his own.

He blows up. Talk about how I had to be the only one with the other shirt on, tight jeans, high heels, talk to a guy, didn't realize its a hit, and most specifically, refer to hubby as my buddy.

I wanted to look nice. Hubby was on my arm the entire time.

Right now, in particular, it seems as if it would be a very good idea for you to be dressing not to please yourself but to please your husband. As him how he feels about the way you dress and how he would like for you to dress. Before you go out, ask him how you look -- not to fish for compliments but to try to get his opinion BEFORE something like that happens again. If he asks you why you care (and I can imagine some BH's asking that question very angrily), tell him that you want to know because you care about his feelings. No matter what, don't be defensive about it, but if he doesn't like the way you're dressed, go change into something that meets his approval. NOTE: I'm not telling you to give him control over you or all your wardrobe decisions, but suggesting that it might be helpful if you go out of your way to take his feelings into account in an area that's obviously a trigger for him.

And when you introduce him, never, ever leave any doubt that he's your husband. Having your hands all over him is not enough to do that, and referring to him as your "buddy" may have even been counterproductive on that front. And I know this isn't what happened, but never forget to introduce him to begin with. (I'm also preaching to myself here -- I'm really bad about failing to introduce my wife.)

[He said] I am still looking for external validation and I need to show him I could get any guy. Says That I'm in denial about needing external validation...

Maybe you have a need for external validation, and maybe you don't. If you do, maybe you're in denial about it, and maybe you're not. Your husband's comments are information for you to use in sorting that out, but you have to sort it out for yourself, not merely assume he's correct. For now, the important thing is how you behave. Knowing why you behave in a certain way can sometimes help you change those behaviors, but I'll almost guarantee that you'll never figure out all the answers to why you make some choices. The good news is that it's not always necessary to know all of those answers (although it may be very frustrating and unsatisfying for your BH when you can't answer the question), and you can certainly BEGIN to work on changing your behavior even if you don't have all the answers.

[This message edited by ResoluteH at 2:55 PM, October 7th (Monday)]


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Default  Posted: 3:16 PM, October 7th (Monday)

I wanted to look nice.
For who?

Rachel, I may be completely off the mark so if I am, ignore. I remember you posting a while back about your mother, (I think I was) and the pressure she put on you when you were younger to be attractive and beautiful.

If I'm not mistaken, you continue that pattern. Working out, dressing to the 9s, also carrying that to your own children because I remember a blow up with your daughters in regards to weight and a wedding recently, yes?

Why this constant pressure to be sexy and beautiful? Who are we trying to impress? Who are we trying to be beautiful for? Is it validation and "admiration" from others? Is it that we feed off those compliments and comments?

We all know being a bangin' size 0 Barbie isn't going to prevent our spouses from cheating anymore than someone looking like Shrek makes someone cheat. That has nothing to do with it.

Does your husband require/like that you dress this way? Didn't you two have a blow-out not long ago because he felt you dressed too sexy?

I agree that he doesn't have the right to dictate that. But I think you should look at your motives and the drivers of the pressure to be so perfect and sexy.

Do we want to be pretty/sexy/whatever? Absolutely. What woman doesn't want to be pretty? But I think we really need to check our motives. Why?


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rachelc
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Default  Posted: 3:29 PM, October 7th (Monday)

Aubrie, I received no such message from my mother.
You may be right about the other stuff, not sure.
I dressed nicely but while I was walking through the tailgate area I had my down coat on. Down past my knees. That's why I took it off to use the porta potty.
It MAY have something to do with the OW. One told him she liked high heels and nice clothes. So it makes me furious when he makes comments about the way I dress being that's how he likes his women, apparently.


his Dday: 2/10 but TT until 7/11
my Ddays: 1/12, 4/12 broken NC 12/12

me (WW/BS): 48
him: (BS/WH)52
4 kiddos in mid 20's

The conditions we face do not define us. They remind us of who we are and who we want to be.


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Default  Posted: 3:39 PM, October 7th (Monday)

So it makes me furious when he makes comments about the way I dress being that's how he likes his women, apparently.

This is a major source of your problem right here. You need to talk this out with him. You can't assume what he likes or doesn't like anymore than he should assume what you like or don't like.

Communication


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Aubrie
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Default  Posted: 3:44 PM, October 7th (Monday)

I received no such message from my mother.
Then I apologize. Must have been someone else I was thinking about.

You may be right about the other stuff, not sure.
Then think on it a while. And of course, you aren't required to answer me. I'm just brainstorming here.

It MAY have something to do with the OW. One told him she liked high heels and nice clothes. So it makes me furious when he makes comments about the way I dress being that's how he likes his women, apparently.
I agree with WH5. You do realize that wayward spouses are terribly broken people and will take pretty much anything given to them right? So while his OW is into heels and nice clothes, that doesn't mean it's his "preference". He cheated with a broken woman who happens to be a diva. I know, I'm making it more simple than it really is.

(((Rachel)))


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rachelc
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Default  Posted: 3:47 PM, October 7th (Monday)

Wife; oh I have. He said he finds me attractive no matter how I'm dressed.

I know logically it didn't matter what or how the OW looked.
If I was doing this to punish him I wouldn't have worn my coat.


his Dday: 2/10 but TT until 7/11
my Ddays: 1/12, 4/12 broken NC 12/12

me (WW/BS): 48
him: (BS/WH)52
4 kiddos in mid 20's

The conditions we face do not define us. They remind us of who we are and who we want to be.


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Default  Posted: 4:32 PM, October 7th (Monday)

How many times has the way you dressed caused problems with him? I can think of at least one other without working too hard.

If it keeps coming up, it is an issue that needs to be addressed.

How would you have dressed if you weren't trying to look nice for your H?


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Default  Posted: 5:55 PM, October 7th (Monday)

I'm sure he would love it if I was a fat frumpy slob. That would make him feel safer....,
But do we live the life our BS wants us to? We've talked about not keeping each other in cages. He drives to work in a brand new car, is the head of the company, wears fancy suits, one block away from OW. I could throw a fit about all that but his job is important to him, for probably the same reasons as what I wear. Are we still waywRds then?


his Dday: 2/10 but TT until 7/11
my Ddays: 1/12, 4/12 broken NC 12/12

me (WW/BS): 48
him: (BS/WH)52
4 kiddos in mid 20's

The conditions we face do not define us. They remind us of who we are and who we want to be.


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Default  Posted: 5:58 PM, October 7th (Monday)

^ And I also seem to remember you posting once that he works out to the point of being "a bodybuilder" and changed his appearance in other ways (hair, IIRC) after your A.


Me: XWS, 30s, 5-month EA/PA in '09-'10
Husband: XBS, 40s
No kids

Married 2.5 years
D-day 3/6/10
Divorced 5/14/10

Remarried. Reconciliation is a process and I still struggle.


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Default  Posted: 6:01 PM, October 7th (Monday)

Not saying there's anything wrong with that, but there's nothing wrong with you wanting to look nice either. You know your own motivations, kwim?


Me: XWS, 30s, 5-month EA/PA in '09-'10
Husband: XBS, 40s
No kids

Married 2.5 years
D-day 3/6/10
Divorced 5/14/10

Remarried. Reconciliation is a process and I still struggle.


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Default  Posted: 6:49 PM, October 7th (Monday)

I'm sure he would love it if I was a fat frumpy slob. That would make him feel safer....,

You're proving my point here. I never said you should become a fat slob. I never said what would make him feel safer. I said you need to communicate with him because what you wore triggered him. I've seen you post before about your outfits triggering him, something about a sweater dress maybe? That shows a pattern to me, and something worth looking into.

With that, I'll step away as I seem to be triggering you. Sorry for that.


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Default  Posted: 7:43 PM, October 7th (Monday)

I'm sure he would love it if I was a fat frumpy slob. That would make him feel safer.
Did he say that or are you assuming?

But do we live the life our BS wants us to?
I think there's a compromise. There's alot of things I do because it's just who I am. But I also do things certain ways because I know QS likes it. Does that mean I'm still wayward? I don't think so. I'm sensitive to his likes/needs. It's a team thing.

I also seem to remember you posting once that he works out to the point of being "a bodybuilder" and changed his appearance in other ways (hair, IIRC) after your A.
So I wonder, is he assuming that you like the "Studly bodybuilder" type? Have you told him otherwise?

I remember the sweater dress thing too WH5. That thread was explosive if I remember, because apparently our spouses have no right to dictate what we do/do not wear. We're our own individual, like it or lump it. I don't entirely agree. I've put stuff on, turned around, and got the raised eyebrow and a, "Uhhh...." from QS. I know better than to walk out of the house wearing that. He doesn't like it, doesn't approve. I respect him enough to not wear it out. I don't see how that is being wayward or how he is "taking away my individuality". His reaction also caused me to think about my motives.

Maybe I'm brainwashed and old school. I dunno. *shrug*


Rachel, you have nothing to loose, and everything to gain by communicating with him.

[This message edited by Aubrie84 at 7:43 PM, October 7th (Monday)]


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Default  Posted: 7:53 PM, October 7th (Monday)

^ And I also seem to remember you posting once that he works out to the point of being "a bodybuilder" and changed his appearance in other ways (hair, IIRC) after your A.

And I don't care about this. I'm happy for him...

He doesn't raise his eyebrows at what I wear much anymore. Says I look nice. Said something different on Saturday though....
My gosh I wouldn't wear that dress anymore.... So i think I've changed.

Someone asked me if I'd wear the same thing if I wasn't with him. Yes. And also the same thing if I was on a deserted island by myself.... I guess I dress for me...


his Dday: 2/10 but TT until 7/11
my Ddays: 1/12, 4/12 broken NC 12/12

me (WW/BS): 48
him: (BS/WH)52
4 kiddos in mid 20's

The conditions we face do not define us. They remind us of who we are and who we want to be.


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Default  Posted: 7:57 PM, October 7th (Monday)

And also the same thing if I was on a deserted island by myself.... I guess I dress for me...

That was my point from what I posted. I didn't mean to insult your H by any means.


Me: XWS, 30s, 5-month EA/PA in '09-'10
Husband: XBS, 40s
No kids

Married 2.5 years
D-day 3/6/10
Divorced 5/14/10

Remarried. Reconciliation is a process and I still struggle.


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Default  Posted: 8:25 AM, October 8th (Tuesday)

Not sure how this thread became primarily about your clothing. Reading your original post, it sounds like it was more than that which upset your H. Am I wrong?


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Default  Posted: 8:33 AM, October 8th (Tuesday)

unforgive: you're right...

I did not act respectfully in a few different ways and I knew it.

One thing Aubrie brought up about his bodybuilding and me not telling him I wanted that. He says he's doing it for me so that I'm attracted to him. I brought up the fact that were both terrified of being alone and keeping ourselves in good shape so if this relationship goes south we are at least physically ready for another relationship. He denies this. I don't. I think we are both doing this for that reason.
Hard thing to admit and talk about but...


his Dday: 2/10 but TT until 7/11
my Ddays: 1/12, 4/12 broken NC 12/12

me (WW/BS): 48
him: (BS/WH)52
4 kiddos in mid 20's

The conditions we face do not define us. They remind us of who we are and who we want to be.


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Default  Posted: 9:10 AM, October 8th (Tuesday)

Well look, you admit, you know what you did wrong.

I did not act respectfully in a few different ways and I knew it

..and thats what you need to focus on. Analyze and re-analyze the situation. Why did you respond to this other guy the way you did? How did it make you feel? At what point did you realizw your H wasn't OK with this? How could this have been avoided?

Have you established firm boundaries, and if so what caused you to not enforce them?

As far as working out and the motives behind it, that's a whole other thread to start. I'll bet that will start some really good discussion


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Default  Posted: 9:26 AM, October 8th (Tuesday)

I keep walking towards hubby, grab him and say, hey, I found us a place to tailgate.

Maybe you should have told him what happened & let him decide if the two you should go or not.


I have my hands all over hubby, say he's my other team buddy

"buddy" doesn't cut it - husband, my guy, love of my life........anything that unmistakable says we are a couple would be best.


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me 50
WH 52
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last broken NC 7/2013 (hopefully)
Married 29 years
2 kids
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Default  Posted: 6:01 AM, October 9th (Wednesday)

update: about 4:30 this am he started railing on me for the way I dressed and how he thinks I need attention and how in denial I am about men. I also bought a shirt at the game and he said it was small and blingy too. Couldn't I just have bought a jersey? I was sobbing as he yelled but I listened....

then he felt bad and said that he's with me because he knows I'm a wonderful person. I said are you sure you think that? He said yes, because I know who you are deep down...

At MC we did talk about how I dressed and the MC said those are his insecurities to deal with and men would have noticed me if I simply had a pulse. God, the way he talks about men is disappointing to me. He asked hubby why he looks at women and hubby answered, "because they're interesting to look at." which I thought that was very honest. and heck, I think women are interesting to look at too...

but I asked if he would have looked at someone dressed like me and he said yes. And I said, so you don't think that's a double standard?

We'll probably never agree on this and I guess I'll just change my wardrobe as it bothers him, although my IC said that is his insecurity to deal with too. But I said, isn't it my job to make him feel safe?

we ended up ok. He had to get some feelings out and that's good!


his Dday: 2/10 but TT until 7/11
my Ddays: 1/12, 4/12 broken NC 12/12

me (WW/BS): 48
him: (BS/WH)52
4 kiddos in mid 20's

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heartache101
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Default  Posted: 2:27 PM, October 9th (Wednesday)

Wow I wear a different style then most women my age. I refuse to wear tshirts or turtlenecks. Just me.
I like my dresses i like them snug for those sweater dresses shows off the curves I also dress for me!
I say be yourself dont wear lingerie outside of the home! KWIM?
I keep certain clothes for date nite super sexy he has no say in what I wear I do listen to his opinion but if I want to wear it I will. Just sayin.
Sounds to me like there is more going on here then the clothes or that man.
Keep working on you hopefully he will calm down and see you only have eyes for him


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refuz2bavictim
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Default  Posted: 2:58 PM, October 9th (Wednesday)

I brought up the fact that were both terrified of being alone and keeping ourselves in good shape so if this relationship goes south we are at least physically ready for another relationship.

This really stands out to me. I'm impressed with your admission. Do you think this could be the source of a "power struggle" ? That would be an excellent defense mechanism. It's like an arms race of sorts.

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rachelc
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Default  Posted: 3:02 PM, October 9th (Wednesday)

Do you think this could be the source of a "power struggle"

possibly... it's all so complicated we can barely get to the bottom of it.


his Dday: 2/10 but TT until 7/11
my Ddays: 1/12, 4/12 broken NC 12/12

me (WW/BS): 48
him: (BS/WH)52
4 kiddos in mid 20's

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foundoutlater
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Default  Posted: 3:44 PM, October 9th (Wednesday)

Just a small thought Ė maybe a change for now will give you both some room to work through the issues the clothes are bringing out. Itís probably not about the clothes. By not fueling that fire though AND working on the issue it might make it easier.


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rachelc
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Default  Posted: 3:53 PM, October 9th (Wednesday)

Itís probably not about the clothes. By not fueling that fire though AND working on the issue it might make it easier.

this I can do. I'm just not sure what the issue is... mistrust? a feeling of disrespect? insecurity?


his Dday: 2/10 but TT until 7/11
my Ddays: 1/12, 4/12 broken NC 12/12

me (WW/BS): 48
him: (BS/WH)52
4 kiddos in mid 20's

The conditions we face do not define us. They remind us of who we are and who we want to be.


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