I really love our MC. We talked about our upcoming anniversary (next week), and how there is reason to celebrate it. We've been through/are in a terribly painful part of our marriage, but we are here. . .still kicking. Still imperfect. Still trying to improve and love each other better.
Some days I get lost in the pain of the infidelity, but MC reminds me that H is here, working hard, trying his best to make things right. I can start to see how this time will be a painful footnote in an otherwise profound, and dare I say it, healing relationship for both of us. I refuse to let it define me, and eventually, us.
So, very hopeful today. The pack of black dogs (jealousy, despair, fear & pain) are, for now, dozing in the sun. I know they'll be back, but for now, I am going to try to enjoy it. me - BS (45)
DDay - June 2013, A was 2+ months, EA/then PA
In MC & Reconciling
I edit, therefore I am.