It does get so much better. It takes time. For me, when I was as early in as you were, I was a huge mess and certain that things would never look up. The day my D was final was one of the worst of my life, but it's only gotten better since then.
You'll find the old you -- the wonderful, fabulous you that you were before your marriage. What are things you gave up, dreams you delayed, interests you never explore? Find some of those and craft a great new life!!!Me: BW, divorced, now fabulous and happy!
Married: 11 years, no kids
Character is destiny