I'm a planner. I make lists, I execute, I cross off, I move on.
Unfortunately for me, dealing with the fallout of WHs affairs is not something I can just put an X next to. I still feel love for him, but there is no trust and little respect and that's just not enough for a sucessful future.
He seems genuinely remorseful, but I'm really feeling like this is all too little too late. I believe he loves me, but I also believe he is very afraid of losing his the security of a marriage, family unit, etc. and his talk of R is much more about his fear of the future than a desire to be with me.
He says he has a plan to prove me wrong.
I'd like to fix this, because that's what I do. Instead. I'm sitting on my hands along the sidelines doing a lot of nodding and watching to see if all the nice words are followed by any concrete action.
This is really, really hard.
Me: BW 52
Him: WH 55
Married 8 years
4 20-something his and hers kids
Trying to understand the behavior of some people is like trying to smell the color 9