We talk every night before going to sleep, and he talks about how I have chosen to pretend to my friends and family that everything is okay (only my sister, IC and MC know), and how this level of lying and keeping it up is so foreign to me.
I make a comment about how glad I am that we never had a Renewal of Vows ceremony because it would have had its foundation in nothing but shit, deceit, lies and betrayal.
His brilliant simpleton mind says this to me: "Maybe if we had a renewal of vows for our 25th, this wouldn't have happened." The A happened, as best as I can tell, in year 25 or 26 of our marriage.
I lost it, and yelled (remember, he has a severe hearing loss & I want to make sure he.hears.every.single.word) that if he couldn't remain faithful based on our original marriage vows, his own morality and his integrity, then a renewal of vows ceremony would not have changed anything.
Then I tell him that I will not be swallowing his shit as he tries to shift the blame of HIS actions to us having or not having a Renewal of Vows ceremony.
At times, I feel his stupidity knows no bounds.