It is hard to keep up the strong front with kids all the time, but I don't see anything wrong with what you said. DS probably misses him too and you are echoing his same thoughts. I can't imagine living in that kind of limbo for that long! How terrible for you!
On the day that I filed papers, my DS20 was sitting in the living room with me and tears were silently falling down my face. He looked over and asked what was wrong. I told him very simply that it was hard to be strong all the time. He looked at me and replied, "Mom, you don't have to be strong all the time. It's okay."
You are human, with human feelings, and it is going to come out once in a while. It's okay to acknowledge sadness. It's a legitimate emotion, and DS might wonder if you DIDN'T show some kind of emotion.BS - Me
XPOS - too many OW/OCs, started 1994? - never stopped
Kids - 22, 20, 17
M Dissolved 2013!!!
This above all: to thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man, ~ Shakespeare