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ThoughtIKnewYa
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Sad  Posted: 4:11 PM, December 1st (Sunday)

As some of you may know, H got cancer from HPV. It was found and removed.

I have been tested over and over and everything has come back fine. I can't remember if I had a pap this year because we had so much going on.

Anyway, my periods changed and I have spotting and some other signs that match up with cervical cancer- the thing I've feared for years.

I already had an appointment to see my Dr. this Thurs., so I'm going to ask her to check it out.

I'm so scared. I've got to get a term life insurance policy in place before Thurs. I've got to re-write my will. I've had a discussion with H about how I would expect DD to be raised, should something happen to me. Do I need to put that into writing, as well?

I'm a total mess. I'm cleaning house and decorating today. I feel like I need to get it all done in case I have to have a surgery or something.


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sullymeishadomi
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Default  Posted: 4:21 PM, December 1st (Sunday)

((Tiky)). One step at a time. Go get the pap and take it from there

Breathe. Breathe.


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k94ever
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Default  Posted: 4:41 PM, December 1st (Sunday)

{{{{hugs}}}}

We will be here for you.

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Williesmom
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Default  Posted: 4:45 PM, December 1st (Sunday)

((Tiky)). Breathe. You're in my thoughts.


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nowiknow23
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Default  Posted: 4:45 PM, December 1st (Sunday)

((((TIKY)))) Keep breathing, honey. It's really easy to go down the rabbit hole while you wait for your appointment, but try your hardest to focus on here and now, ok?

We're here. Sending you strength and healing thoughts.


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Amazonia
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Default  Posted: 5:40 PM, December 1st (Sunday)

I had 8mm of precancerous cells removed from my cervix on Wednesday. It's scary. My doctor told me that cervical cancer is one of the slowest cancers to develop, and it sounds like you have been keeping a close eye on any potential development, so I bet if it's there, it's still early and you will be able to take care of it quickly. Good for you for being proactive and keeping an eye on it.

Healthy mojo!


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jrc1963
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Default  Posted: 6:09 PM, December 1st (Sunday)

(((TIKY)))

Try not to panic yet! Could your symptoms be at all related to Peri-Menopause?

Hang in there.... We're all here for you!


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Nature_Girl
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Default  Posted: 7:13 PM, December 1st (Sunday)

How old are you? If you're 35 or older, could you possibly consider this is peri-menopause?


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dameia
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Default  Posted: 7:14 PM, December 1st (Sunday)

(((TIKY)))

I hope that everything checks out fine and this is just a strange hiccup in your cycle. I will keep you in my prayers.


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NaiveAgain
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Default  Posted: 9:44 PM, December 1st (Sunday)

(((TIKY)))


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purplejacket4
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Default  Posted: 11:13 PM, December 1st (Sunday)

As long as you have had your paps when you were supposed to it won't be cervical cancer. If your older than 40 your doctor might consider a pelvic ultrasound or an endometrial biopsy looking for a uterine rather than cervical cancer. Depending on your age this could also be peri menopausal bleeding. Try not to panic.

Dr. PJ4


Me: BS 45
Her: fWS 48 (same sex partner)
Together: 18 years now (both MDs)
OW: meh so what 40s PhD
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tushnurse
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Default  Posted: 8:26 AM, December 2nd (Monday)

((((TIKY)))))

I have to agree with PJ here, the chances that it is something significantly scary, are not as high as the chances that something hormonally related is going on. There are all kinds of reasons for abnormal bleeding. Please try not to jump to the worst possible answer.

Deep breaths,and know that you have done as much as you can to protect yourself, by going regularly and watching, and getting checked out.

I had all kinds of abnormal bleeding, including bleeding throughout my entire second pregnancy. Talk about scary. But you really have to relax and wait for the Dr's appointment. (btw if you are using certain types of BC they can cause abnormal bleeding too).

((((and strength)))


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ThoughtIKnewYa
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Default  Posted: 3:19 PM, December 2nd (Monday)

Thanks, everybody!

To answer some of the questions, I'm about to turn 46, not on any kind of BC, my periods have gone from lasting three days to seven days plus, I have spotting in between periods, and a dull ovulation-like pain.

One of the biggest problems I'm having is that H had a coworker whose wife died back in 2007 of cervical cancer without ever having a bad pap. She was pregnant, started spotting, went to the Dr. and they found the cancer. She delivered the baby early and went through a major operation followed by chemo. She lived about five months post-diagnosis and she was 27.

On the other hand, I have a friend who had cervical cancer, had a hysterectomy, and is fine many years later.

It's just maddening. Thursday can't come fast enough!


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StillLivin
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Default  Posted: 6:02 PM, December 2nd (Monday)

B.r.e.a.t.h.e!
First, just breathe.
I've been in this rodeo before, too many times.
Advice given to me and I'm passing on to you because it was spot on.
First, don't panic. Assume your normal routine until all tests come back. Do your research, but go on with your life as usual.
Again. Breathe.
If it is, then you need to keep it together so you can fight it. Most likely, statistically, it isn't.
You will get through this. Lean on your family and friends....that includes us at SI.
There is no sense jumping to the conclusion that it is until the fat lady sings.
Please keep us posted.
Prayers and hugs being sent your way.


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tushnurse
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Default  Posted: 7:13 PM, December 2nd (Monday)

Oh sweetie I'm gonna bet my lunch on perimenopause. 46 and have had 3 day periods until now?!?! You big bragger. You need to relax and enjoy life.
Answers tomorrow.


Me: FBS
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ThoughtIKnewYa
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Default  Posted: 7:16 PM, December 2nd (Monday)

46 and have had 3 day periods until now?!?! You big bragger.
I guess it gets worse from there- I have PCOS and didn't even have regular periods until recently! Maybe that's why I'm so freaked out?? Because it's suddenly just so different from what I've always known?

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purplejacket4
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Default  Posted: 8:43 PM, December 2nd (Monday)

You might also have developed a fibroid. Google that. It's a benign growth if the uterus that causes painful heavy bleeding. It's the number one cause for hysterectomies not related to cancer/precancerous lesions.


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Her: fWS 48 (same sex partner)
Together: 18 years now (both MDs)
OW: meh so what 40s PhD
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ThoughtIKnewYa
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Default  Posted: 8:57 PM, December 2nd (Monday)

You know, pj, I was diagnosed with a fibroid before DD was born. She was born via emergency C-section and I asked then if they saw a fibroid and they said everything looked normal. Could it be that the hormones in my pregnancy caused it to go 'dormant' for a bit?? I've always wondered what happened to it!

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unbreak_my_heart
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Default  Posted: 8:52 AM, December 3rd (Tuesday)

What PJ4 said!

That's what happened to me when I was 36.


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Deeply Scared
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Default  Posted: 8:55 AM, December 3rd (Tuesday)

(((TIKY)))

Positive thoughts to you!!


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cmego
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Default  Posted: 9:13 AM, December 3rd (Tuesday)

I've had it all GYN related…and from what you described, that sounds like what I was going through before the last ovarian cyst.

Like Ama, I had 1/3 of my cervix removed due to "carcinoma in situ", then had the babies with lots of problems in-between with PCOS and endometriosis and lots of ovarian cysts that caused surgeries and for me to lose an ovary at 28. After second child was born, there was unexplained heavy bleeding and pain. "Oh…you are just post partum!!" 5 months of that mess before I had an ultrasound, and found a massive complex cyst, and another bad pap…I had a total hysterectomy a few days later. I was 36 at the time.

Ahhhhh. Best thing I ever did.

Hang in there, I know it is scary.


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tushnurse
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Default  Posted: 10:41 AM, December 3rd (Tuesday)

TIKY - The best present I ever gave myself was a hysterectomy at 31. I had both kids luckily evidently, the issues I had progressed and worsened after. Adenomiosis, and a few ovarian cysts, and those suckers will cause abdominal pain that comes and goes as hormones fluctuate. PCOS - with peri-menopause = unpleasant times. LOL.

Talk to your Dr about things, and even if the PAP is normal which mine always were it can gte to a point where it effects your quality of life, bleeding 20 out of 28 days, being anemic, on and on.

Talk to your Dr, and take a deep breath.


Me: FBS
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Kids: 15 & 17
Married for 22 years now, was 16 at the time. .
D-Day Sept 26 2008
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tushnurse
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Default  Posted: 8:12 PM, December 3rd (Tuesday)

Hey girl what did the Dr have to say today?


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Kids: 15 & 17
Married for 22 years now, was 16 at the time. .
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ThoughtIKnewYa
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Default  Posted: 8:18 PM, December 3rd (Tuesday)

My appointment isn't until Thurs.

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ThoughtIKnewYa
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Default  Posted: 2:48 PM, December 5th (Thursday)

I'm back from the Dr.!! I'm good, she says. My blood pressure is down, blood work all looks OK...

She said my problems are likely perimenopause. She's going to go ahead and schedule a pap, though, in Jan. She assured me that what happened to my H's Co-worker's W was exceptionally rare and helped ease my mind a bit on that.


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nowiknow23
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Default  Posted: 2:55 PM, December 5th (Thursday)

YAY!!!!!

(ps - that may be the first time I have ever yay'ed peri-menopause)


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unfound
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Default  Posted: 2:57 PM, December 5th (Thursday)

She said my problems are likely perimenopause

warm blankets
ice packs
draino
pimple cream
hot water bottle
ice packs
light days pads
extra heavy, dear lord someone slaughtered a pig in my pants pads
ice packs
fan
bail money

*starter kit for your new (good news) diagnosis of perimenopause

so glad you got good news and relief


[This message edited by unfound at 2:58 PM, December 5th (Thursday)]


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tushnurse
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Default  Posted: 3:11 PM, December 5th (Thursday)

LMAO at Unfound.

I bet my lunch on it and was right. Yipee!!!
Welcome to the club sister.

Fun stuff ahead.


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Kids: 15 & 17
Married for 22 years now, was 16 at the time. .
D-Day Sept 26 2008
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ThoughtIKnewYa
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Default  Posted: 5:38 PM, December 5th (Thursday)

extra heavy, dear lord someone slaughtered a pig in my pants pads
That's the part that sent me into freak out mode!!

I rarely get cold, but when I do, my Raynaud's acts up something fierce!! I've been sleeping with the window open in my bedroom, even when it gets down in the 20s!! I feel bad for my H, but I STILL wake up just roasting.

I'm relieved, for now, but not looking forward to riding this out for five or six years. I think I already have a least a year under my belt!

She talked about low dose birth control to manage symptoms, but I'm one of those "med-resistant" patients- I REALLY don't want to take a med unless I absolutely have to take one because I've just experienced a snowball effect (one med leads to another to treat side effect from first med, on and on...)too many times and ended-up having a bowl full of pills for breakfast. So, I do everything I can to avoid that.


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Default  Posted: 6:09 PM, December 5th (Thursday)

OMG, Unfound! LMAO and amen, sister!

My doc gave me the names of some OTC herbal crap that is supposed to maybe help. My symptoms aren't that bad yet, but I feel them coming.


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jrc1963
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Default  Posted: 6:51 PM, December 5th (Thursday)

TIKY... I think I'm in the Peri club with you... but my crap ass OBGYN won't confirm... She just says, "yeah, probably." And that was it.

Mostly I'm having really bad PMS... and by bad I mean my family hides from me.


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Him: FWSO - 69
DS - 13
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R - he finally came home
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ThoughtIKnewYa
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Default  Posted: 7:51 PM, December 5th (Thursday)

and by bad I mean my family hides from me.
Well, my family has been doing that for years when I get cranky!

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jrc1963
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Default  Posted: 8:33 PM, December 5th (Thursday)


Me: BSO - 46
Him: FWSO - 69
DS - 13
D-Day - 12-11-09,
R - he finally came home
Your life is an Occasion. Rise to it. - Mr. Magorium, "Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium"

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FaithFool
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Default  Posted: 9:12 PM, December 5th (Thursday)

extra heavy, dear lord someone slaughtered a pig in my pants pads

ROTFLMAO....

SO TRUE! Gah.................<<<<<<<<<<

I managed it with a couple of years of an excellent herbal supplement that had black cohosh and stuff in it. (Estrologic I think it was called.)

Worked like a charm and it's been years now since things levelled off.

Just today I was booking a pap and the nurse was saying "well the doctor likes to schedule it around the midpoint of your cycle". I just hooted at her and we had a good laugh about that.

The only cycle FF has these days is down in the garage waiting for the next sunny day.

LOL

[This message edited by FaithFool at 9:14 PM, December 5th (Thursday)]


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