I feel for you, have a (((dl))) or two (((dl)))
time sure is a four letter word alright. but that's how we move forward - slowly - as time passes and we work on ourselves.
you are right though when you say she does not deserve to spend time with your kids. its one of my pet peeves too.
one of your sentences jumped out at me, about being over him but not over what happened. I feel like this too sometimes. and it will end, you will reach indifference, and it will be worth all your hard work that you have put into yourself.
you have come a long way from DD. please don't stop doing all that you've been doing to help your recovery. you are worth it all. hang in there :)
sorry my post is a bit dis-jointed. and finally, no I don't think finding a partner is what you need, focus on you, and your kids, but mostly you, cause you know, if Mamma aint happy, nobody aint going to be happy.
chin up lovely lady, you will beat this Me = FBS
Him = gone
things that happen in my life do not define who I am. I get to choose to be the best I can be, for me. cause I'm worth it.