User Topic: Trying to post something positive for once...
Member # 41189
Default  Posted: 11:59 AM, December 10th (Tuesday)

So, WW has been getting better and better at expressing her feelings, better apologies all the time, and yet I was noticing I was really pulling away from her for a couple weeks.

Fear? Anger? Emotional exhaustion? All of the above.

So to force myself back, I pulled out the emotional heavy artillery and played one of "our" songs as we lay in bed. I shook with emotion as I remembered the woman I had loved. Maybe still love. She cried too.

Then the most emotional sex since the HB faded.

Of course, the next day my armour went up…

But I'm learning I have to take these leaps.

D day- June 30, 2013
Me - BS
Married 15 years
5 year old child
Attempting R as of Oct. 1 2013

"Cry, and let your soul be cleansed of a love that turned to carnage." - Christy Brown

Posts: 99 | Registered: Nov 2013 | From: Canada
Member # 35846
Default  Posted: 12:33 PM, December 10th (Tuesday)

It takes a lot of time. So taking in the good and enjoying every piece of it is so important.

If she continues to do the right thing you will slowly be able to let your guard down.

Slow is a good thing.

Actions not words, they build the trust back. One step at a time.

Good for you

“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom”
Anaïs Nin
Me: 45
Him: 47
Dday 8/2007
We have R'd

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