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Dyinghere
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Default  Posted: 10:41 PM, December 25th (Wednesday)

I did the last 2days for them. I didn't cry, I cooked, I cleaned, I smiled, I sang, I dressed up, took pictures. I served meals and played games. I even laughed. My children had a great Christmas.

Now they are in bed, I took a minute to myself and my heart felt the full force of the pain that I have ignored by sheer force of will for 2 days.

Oh, it hurts. Knowing he said those endearments to her. Knowing he did those things with her.

My heart hurts so much. I am glad Christmas Day is done.




Posts: 132 | Registered: Nov 2013 | From: the inside of my head
caregiver9000
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Member # 28622
Default  Posted: 10:45 PM, December 25th (Wednesday)

(((hugs)))

Congratulations! You did it!! Be proud of yourself and let the feelings come now that the day is done. Do something kind for yourself and sleep well.


Me: 44, independent, happy, despite co-parenting with a lower muppet
FT "Stretch" (and Skew!) ;)
DS 13 DS 10
S 5/2010
D 12/2012

Posts: 5741 | Registered: May 2010 | From: a better place
jrc1963
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Member # 26531
Default  Posted: 10:45 PM, December 25th (Wednesday)

(((Dyinghere)))


Me: BSO - 46
Him: FWSO - 68
DS - 12
D-Day - 12-11-09,
R - he finally came home
Your life is an Occasion. Rise to it. - Mr. Magorium, "Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium"

Posts: 24413 | Registered: Dec 2009 | From: Florida
Dreamland
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Member # 40488
Default  Posted: 11:35 PM, December 25th (Wednesday)

Huggs you are a champ.. I tried the best I could but found myself a little distant.
Huggs to Us Betrayed moms.


Me-BS 50 Him-WH 47, DD17
Together since 1993, Married 19 yrs
DDay 3/12,4/12,7/12 EA-PA OW - 25 single husband chasing bastard whore

Posts: 515 | Registered: Aug 2013
lemony.2008
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Member # 20125
Default  Posted: 11:42 PM, December 25th (Wednesday)

((((Dyinghere))))

You're an awesome mom. Your children are very lucky.

Sending love and peace. More hugs.


Feel the feelings and drop the story. - Pema Chodron


Posts: 2243 | Registered: Jul 2008 | From: Canada
goodbye_virginia
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Member # 16321
Default  Posted: 12:21 AM, December 26th (Thursday)

What a great mom!

Now take some time to decompress...some time for you. Hugs.


Me- BW 35
Him - WH 43

Posts: 53 | Registered: Sep 2007 | From: Texas
Nailinmyforehead
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Member # 38427
Default  Posted: 5:03 AM, December 26th (Thursday)

Congrats! You did it!


"Son, you've got the future- shining like a piece of gold, but I swear as we get closer- it looks more like a lump of coal"

Posts: 132 | Registered: Feb 2013 | From: Ohio
karmahappens
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Member # 35846
Default  Posted: 5:41 AM, December 26th (Thursday)

The first one is the hardest. Take some time for you going forward.

(((hugs)))


“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom”
Anaïs Nin
Me: 45
Him: 47
Dday 8/2007
We have R'd

Posts: 3789 | Registered: Jun 2012 | From: Massachusetts
nowiknow23
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Member # 33226
Default  Posted: 8:59 AM, December 26th (Thursday)

((((dyinghere)))) Be gentle with yourself over the next few days, honey.


You can call me NIK

"Sometimes it takes a good fall to know where you really stand."
-Hayley Williams


Posts: 24728 | Registered: Aug 2011
Dyinghere
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Member # 41313
Default  Posted: 10:38 AM, December 26th (Thursday)

(((((((Hugs)))))))))) back to all of you.

We are all stronger than we used to be.

Peace.




Posts: 132 | Registered: Nov 2013 | From: the inside of my head
ziganska
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Member # 41690
Default  Posted: 12:11 PM, December 26th (Thursday)

Congrats to you! I am personally looking forward to next Tuesday at midnight because I want to put 2013 behind me forever. May you get through that day too and more to come. You are clearly stronger than you think!


Me: 42
Him: 49
DD: 12/2/2013
Married: 9 years but together for 15
Recovering, Reconciling, Rebuilding, Restoring

Posts: 123 | Registered: Dec 2013 | From: New York
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