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lostinthesouth
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Default  Posted: 1:37 AM, January 25th (Saturday)

went to a function tonight and all my friends were there-not one of them knows of H's A. I left feeling sad, jealous, and envious of their happiness with their spouse and of their marriage. All I have is a big question mark over my marriage and if I have it in me to move forward or do I just have to accept being content. I'm not even sure I like H. Still in the angry mode I guess. This is a hard road! Hate that we are all here. Just had to vent to someone

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Jrazz
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Member # 31349
Default  Posted: 1:45 AM, January 25th (Saturday)

(((lostinthesouth)))

I remember feeling that way about other couples in the beginning. Something that I've learned a lot about while being here is that we've ALL been through something. Being on this side of this particular fence has opened my eyes to the fact that there are MANY situational fences that I wasn't even aware of in the first place. It's helped me to push down the envy that someone else's life looks easier or better than mine. It's also helped me let go of some judgment. Side bonus.

It's normal for you to feel unsure. It's not a comfortable place, but it's not permanent either. You don't have to have answers right now. Just breathe, take care of yourself, and make small steps when you feel ready.

[This message edited by Jrazz at 1:45 AM, January 25th (Saturday)]


Don't grieve. Anything you lose comes round in another form. -Rumi

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lostinthesouth
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Member # 41377
Default  Posted: 11:39 PM, January 25th (Saturday)

Thank you Jrazz!! Taking my baby steps--hell what am I talking about-I think I'm still crawling It's all about that stupid four letter word-time

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