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SandAway
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Default  Posted: 9:23 AM, January 27th (Monday)

There is a heart-wrenching post in JFO about a BH who's WW is pregnant with the OM's child.

Some have suggested aborting it and others suggested D'ing her ass..

Makes me sad as that child is me.

When I was 21, after a heated argument with my father, he sat me down and told me how much he loved me and that he was not my real father. My mother had an A and became pregnant with me. When my parents D in 1972, he fought to gain custody of us kids. I always knew that for him to do that he had to prove she was an unfit mother, now I know how he did that.

He loved me unconditionally. He passed away many years ago as did my mom (whom I never confronted) - Thank God I have an AMAZING step-mom.

I hope he is looking down at me with that same unconditional love, but I am not so sure...


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M 16yrs
DDay Nov. 2011

Guns don't kill people; Affairs kill people


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Sal1995
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Default  Posted: 9:33 AM, January 27th (Monday)

I hope he is looking down at me with that same unconditional love, but I am not so sure...

Why, because you are human and flawed? I'd bet the farm his spirit loves you unconditionally, as do many others in your life. You can be hugely disappointed in someone without losing even a trace of the love you feel for them.


Me (BS)-45, WW-43
DDay 2/17/13, 9-10 month PA/EA
M - 18 years, 4 children
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stunnedin12
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Default  Posted: 9:57 AM, January 27th (Monday)

I have a friend whose one child is an "OC". I can tell you that child is loved beyond all reason. Their marriage did not survive, but the child is/was loved.

I bet your Dad (and he IS your DAD) loves you.

My heart is hurting for you and for the family/child in the JFO forum.


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Him - Wayward spouse
Not sure, but trying I guess.

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Ascendant
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Default  Posted: 10:00 AM, January 27th (Monday)

I agree, SandAway...I don't go into JFO very often....but that post tore me to pieces. I can't imagine. Thank you for sharing some perspective.


I keep my mind on my future/and my eyes on the sky/I don't really smile much/If you were there you'd know why.

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DeadMumWalking
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Default  Posted: 10:01 AM, January 27th (Monday)

((((SandAway))))


Me (BS), Him (WH): early 50's
3 DS: teens!!! :)
M: 25 (19 1/2 at Dday), Together 30
Dday: Dec 2008
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Williesmom
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Default  Posted: 10:05 AM, January 27th (Monday)

((sandaway))


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DixieD
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Default  Posted: 10:14 AM, January 27th (Monday)

Sarah Polley made a documentary called Stories We Tell. It's about her life and finding out about being an OC. She interviews her siblings and her fathers. It may be a very triggery movie on a lot of levels but it showed the unconditional love and care between her dad who raised her and herself. He seemed like a remarkable man. Sounds like your dad was the same.

(((SandAway)))


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Default  Posted: 3:54 PM, January 27th (Monday)

Sandaway,

Your post is SO ironic to me. I was just thinking this very morning about my life & my parents, as today is their 47 year wedding anniversary. But I also realized today that I am "kind of" the OC & had even thought to myself that I could start a thread stating I was the OC. So thx so much for starting it for us.

By saying I was "kind of" the OC, I mean that my parents are married today 47 years & on Wednesday, the 29th, I turn 46 years old. All that my sister & I know is that both our parents were married to other people & had an affair together. My sister is the child from my mom's 1st marriage & my dad has a son from his 1st marriage, that we rarely EVER saw growing up. Then I am the product of their marriage & affair, though this is not something that is discussed with them & I doubt my sister & I will ever have the full or true story.

So while they were technically married a year & 2 days when I was born, they still had an affair together that destroyed 2 marriages & which led to me shortly thereafter.

I could NEVER understand why my dad's 1st wife acted like she absolutely hated me when I was little. We would have minimum contact with her but when she would drop off my half-brother at family reunions & that type of thing, I felt it even as a child. Everyone always told me it was because I looked just like my brother & it was weird to her. I also never understood the bitterness & hatred that my mother always felt for my grandmother, my dad's mom, & vice versa.

My grandmother would never "acknowledge" my sister as a grandchild & it made for some very uncomfortable times growing up. BUT.....now I TOTALLY understand the why's of how they all acted & why they did!!

How sad that infidelity was doing the same thing it is today almost 50 years ago & I am pretty sure, much longer. No matter how much time has passed & no matter what year it is today, infidelity is one of those timeless, age-old curses that will always be around, following the same paths it has since however long ago.

It's just a sad fact all around!!!


Marriage #1=BW-46 (now)
XWH-Deceased on his 36 bday
Divorced in 1996
Marriage #2= Married in 2003
H-44
2 kids together-DS14 & DD12
"All this time I was finding myself & I didn't know I was lost"

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Aubrie
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Default  Posted: 4:22 PM, January 27th (Monday)

I'm sorry you're hurting.

(((Sand)))


Me - FWW * Him - QuietStand

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LosferWords
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Default  Posted: 4:32 PM, January 27th (Monday)

This topic hits very close to home for me, SandAway.

I hope he is looking down at me with that same unconditional love, but I am not so sure...

I have a pretty good idea that he is.

Family is who you make it. Your father obviously loved you enough to fight very hard to have you in his life and take care of you. I can't see that love and protectiveness ever changing. I can personally attest that it will never change with my feelings toward my little champ.

Hope this helps a bit.


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Girlietoo
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Default  Posted: 9:28 PM, January 27th (Monday)

I realized just last night that I too, am an OC. My mother was single when she became pregnant with me but my bio father was either engaged or just newly married. (My bio father went on to have a family and never saw me again until a few years ago when my sister, his oldest daughter, reached out to me)

I've always had the strongest reaction to OC threads and I know in my heart that my husband fathering a child with someone else would be the end of me.

I've also had strong reactions to infidelity my entire life, it was the one thing I BEGGED my husband never to do to me. I didn't care if he left me but I couldn't stand to be cheated on.

At any rate, this OC revelation is something I plan to discuss in therapy this week. I think it is an interesting piece of information.


Me- 40
Him- 47
March 9, 2013- the day my heart died

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SandAway
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Default  Posted: 6:47 AM, January 28th (Tuesday)

Thanks everyone for your support.

I know that my dad never planned on telling me he wasn't my birth father. The only reason he did was because I was so angry I was spewing "I hate you!" as I went into my room slamming my door. I can remember like it was yesterday when he came in and sat beside me on my bed and told me. It was quite a shock but it completely made sense - everyone in my family had straight blond hair & blue eyes; I have brown curly hair and brown eyes.

You can be hugely disappointed in someone without losing even a trace of the love you feel for them.

So true Sal - my BH exemplifies this with his love for me. And I just can't even imagine the strength it took for my dad to accept me. Such an amazing man, and because of his unconditional love for me I never once have had a desire to know who the sperm came from.

Losfer, Thank you for reading & commenting. I do remember reading your story in the BM forum. It really resonated with me because of this ~ your son is very lucky to have you as his father.


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M 16yrs
DDay Nov. 2011

Guns don't kill people; Affairs kill people


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helpemegetoverit
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Default  Posted: 7:15 AM, January 28th (Tuesday)

I sorry you are hurting. Thanks all of you above for sharing your stories. I rarely read in JFO but I did just read this and it's very triggery for me.

I hope they are able to figure out what is best for their family. I'm not quite sure what that is, I know every decision comes with it's own consequences.

[This message edited by helpemegetoverit at 7:24 AM, January 28th (Tuesday)]


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Him: BH

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JanaGreen
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Default  Posted: 7:35 AM, January 28th (Tuesday)

((HUGS)) Sand


We're both in our 30s. One awesome 4-year-old daughter.

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badchoice
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Default  Posted: 10:06 AM, January 28th (Tuesday)

SandAway - sorry you are hurting.

I learned last year that I too am an OC. My mother was not married when she got pregnant with me, but my father was. I never met my father, he never tried to get involved or support me, and I have thought about contacting him, but have not.

I went and read the thread in JFO, and remember why I stay out of that and the General threads. I get defensive, upset, triggered, etc when i go over there.

Thanks for posting this.


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Separated transitioning to D


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Tickingtock
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Default  Posted: 4:41 PM, January 28th (Tuesday)

Thank you for sharing sandaway. You've given a really important perspective on the OC issue.

For everyone else, please do not read that thread if it's going to trigger you. It's getting really ugly and out of control. I read it a few minutes ago and it's making me feel kinda sick . And I have absolutely no personal connection with the issue. Just a friendly warning.

ETA: clarity.

[This message edited by Tickingtock at 4:42 PM, January 28th (Tuesday)]


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Default  Posted: 4:47 PM, January 28th (Tuesday)

(((Sand)))


"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest." My Mom:)

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nowiknow23
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Default  Posted: 5:12 PM, January 28th (Tuesday)

((((SandAway))))


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hitbyatruck
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Default  Posted: 9:45 PM, January 28th (Tuesday)

My little brother is an OC. I am only using the term "oc" for clarity. I love him like he is one of my own kids. We are 15 yrs apart. I too have a strong reaction to the OC threads.

My parent's marriage did not survive more than a few minutes past the announcement of an OC coming along. But my brother is truly an amazing person and I couldn't imagine life without him.

He has no idea of the timeline or that he is an OC and I hope no one ever tells him. No point in that now at all.


Married 1998, 2 kids
D-day3/27/09,he left 5/23/09
WH wants to rebuild 3/21/10
He moved back in 9/25/10,
Dec, 2011-finally putting it all together, H had multiple affairs.
Possible porn addict for 15 yrs.
01/2014- in house separation

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