Sorry guys I know I'm relatively new here but I lurk a lot and consider you wise rational souls.
I am having a nervous breakdown now, probably related to Valentines Day. WS continues to see AP, an ex-famiy friend. He spends every night without the kids, with her. I am making animalistic noises imitating them. I have sheer hatred for what he has done and what he continues to do. He has shown my sons that when marriage gets hard, just shut up and find someone else. He has shown them that mommy is not love-able. It's OK to break up two families just to satisfy the narcissistic need for appreciation and "love". Who gives a shit that there are 4 children involved, 4 children who are all friends and like each other? Yeah, my dad's banging your slut mother….well yeah your dad's a bastard for breaking up my family (this conversation hasn't happened yet); great for the friendship right?
My WH is a selfish scared coward little boy afraid of anything other than pollyanna attitudes. He needs a mommy to stroke him constantly, god forbid if there are any lessons to learn. Ooooooh gee our marriage needs work? Are you talking to me? Well I can't heeeeearrr you, my fingers are in my ears, lalalalalalala let me go find someone else now.
Look what a big shot I am…..master of the grand gesture……hey did you know my WIFE is actually paying for our little trip? Yeah, l just take it out of the credit margin after SHE pays the mortgage…aren't you impressed with how much money it looks like I have? Oh and BTW can you pay for the next trip since your ex is richer than mine, wow did you clean up! Let's just walk into the sunset with our settlements. Leave the families in the dust. Oh BTW wife, when are you going to start giving me child support since you cut me off the credit margin you big meanie??? A man's gotta live you know.
And right now at this moment THEY ARE DOING IT (I just erased the explicit description). I can't breathe.
I am considering moving back to my home country just to not have this in my face constantly.
PLEASE EXPLAIN WTF I STILL CARE ABOUT THIS DOUCHEBAG
I am losing my mind
married 19 years
separated since 8/2013
D in progress
D-day Dec 21 2013 (after separation)
2 sons 15 and 11
OW = family friend and WH work colleague, going on many years (I was clueless)