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Stop  Posted: 12:43 PM, March 9th (Sunday)

Is it normal for me (WS) to feel a violent rage towards myself because of cheating? I just had a breakdown in front if my 5 y/o son. I cant stop crying and I feel an intense rage inside. Help?

Posts: 11 | Registered: Feb 2014 | From: TheBatCave
Member # 39033
Default  Posted: 1:04 PM, March 9th (Sunday)

Yes I think so but you can't let that rage overtake you. Especially in front of your child. Get yourself together....are you alone with your child? If so, is there someone to watch him for a bit? You need to feel these feelings but safely away from him. Go somewhere in your vehicle and scream, beat the steering wheel, turn the radio up LOUD and let it out. Then pull it together and regroup with yourself. This isn't the only thing that makes you YOU, just something you know you can grow into a better person from.

It's ok to lose it, as long as you can find it again. You can do this!

WW 43 (me)
BH 45
Married 24 yrs
3 kids
DDay 2/10/13 Confessed

Posts: 67 | Registered: Apr 2013 | From: Southern USA
Member # 41969
Default  Posted: 4:45 PM, March 9th (Sunday)

I think it's pretty normal. I've felt instances of that towards myself, and I have episodes of crippling sorrow where I can't do anything but sit there and sob, and I wish I could go back in time and 1) murder the disgusting piece of crap that is my xAP, and 2) beat the shit out of my younger self.

Me: WS 26. 4 year EA and PA.
Him: BS (MercifulH) 27.
D-day 1/3/14.
Separated heading to D :(

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