I just don't get why I am feeling so sad, for the loss of my M, the loss of the dream of growing old together, loss of our family unit ,etc. I just don't know.
Feelings aside, he is a JERK. Always thought of only himself, taking "his" vacations. Whenever I suggested we take a family trip, he always replied it was too expensive. Thinks only of himself, not his kids. Never is involved in their activities, never helps out, always is with his friends. He cheated and never really did feel remorseful about it. After a comment he made to my son (about how it was my son's fault for losing a sports tournament) It finally snapped with me, that I was DONE. I'm just waiting for the papers to be served.
I had a long talk with my FIL today which he initiated, he was very concerned about what was going on. He always said that I would be family no matter what and was sorry that his son hasn't straightened up, but that he never listens. My FIL said that he would always be there for me and my kids (as both of my parents are deceased). My FIL confirmed to me that POS is re-doing an upstairs apartment above the business that he runs (which I had a feeling about). No doubt, its for him.
Is this just an off-day?? I can't see us R, I just can't trust him. Did I have one too many glasses of wine?? Is this normal??
Me: BW. 40's
Him: WH POS. 40's
2 kids. DD16, DS14
Don't let my user name fool you...I am NOT hopeful for us at ALL!!