Well said Jrazz.
I often question why would you fake it?
If you are hurt, and in pain, you should be able to show it. Now I don't mean rolling around on the floor with snot on your face, and dog hair sticking to it feeling it, but it's ok to let the kids, the spouse, friends and family know that hey we are having a rough time, and I am having a really hard time finding any happiness in life right now.
And if you are pretending to have a good M because your WS isn't doing the work then the only person you are really helping by doing this is the WS. IT's certainly not helping you, it also is hurting your kids showing them some f'd version of what M is. It is soul crushing.
If you are faking it, consider your reasons why. Perhaps you need to reevaluate your choice, and be more authentic to you. You need to grieve. It's ok.