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WearingTheHorns
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Default  Posted: 8:06 AM, July 15th (Tuesday)

Do you find it difficult to make long term plans with your WS? Last night WW asked me a question about the cruise we're taking in December, and that lead to talking about an Alaskan cruise which is something she's always wanted to do. That got her fired up and we did a little looking at prices and such. Then she went into planning mode and figured up cost of a cruise + travel expenses, etc. She then hit on a plan for us to save over the next four years to afford to be able to take one for our 10 year anniversary. I know she was excited at the prospect and I liked the idea, but I just couldn't get excited about it because in the back of my mind I kept thinking, "If we're together that long." The same thing happens with some even shorter term plans we talk about. I really can't put my finger on what I think about it. I don't know if it's natural reticence because in a way everything about us (to me anyway) is still kind of up in the air, or if part of me is saying "Don't get too comfortable, we're not staying much longer."


Dday: over a period of three days 11/14-16/2012.
EA/PA: ~ 2 1/2 years
EA/beginning PA: ~ 10 months

"What God has joined together, let man... no man put asunder" -Pastor at our wedding concluding the ceremony

2 Cor 12:9-10


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ItsaClimb
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Default  Posted: 8:41 AM, July 15th (Tuesday)

I have a great deal of difficulty with this. We have just returned from a 2 week cruise in the Med and a further 2 weeks touring... my dream vacation - we booked it at a point in R when things were going great] but unfortunately, a year later, when we left for the cruise things were going anything but great We made the best of it, well we tried to, but to be honest it was quite stressful, difficult, awkward, sad.... Not the way a dream vacation is meant to be at all.

Now we are back, it's time to start planning our next vacation and I am vacillating, I just don't know whether to go ahead and plan something or to wait-and-see.

Wish I could offer some help, but all I can say is you are not alone...


BS 46
Together 29 yrs, M 25 years
2 daughters 24yo(married with a brand new little daughter) & 19yo
D-Day 18 Aug 2012
6mth EA lead to 4mth PA with CO-W. I found out 8 1/2 yrs later

Posts: 1022 | Registered: Oct 2012
somanyyears
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Member # 26970
Default  Posted: 8:55 AM, July 15th (Tuesday)


..we've made plans each year for the past 5 years of R..

..and sadly faced the possible cancelling, thanks all to the 'rollercoaster' of emotions we deal with..

..somehow, we managed to pull our shit together and go on the trips, but it came real-close a couple of times!!

..sad, what this shit does to one's life..

smy


trust no other human- love only your pets
She isn't and never was who I thought..I can't believe who I married and what she did to us.
Me 67
Her 63
Married 42 yrs (together 47)
18 yr LTA with bf


Posts: 4129 | Registered: Dec 2009 | From: the sad state of affairs
TheIrishGirl
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Default  Posted: 9:15 AM, July 15th (Tuesday)

We still talk about long term plans: re-modeling the kitchen/bathroom, putting in a pool, a big trip to Europe for his 40th, repeat the honeymoon for our 10th... Those things I'm fine with, they are hopeful. They may or may not pan out, but in the mean time it's nice to imagine us happy again.

But then we talk about me cutting back to part time work so I can be with the kids more... I can't do it. I want so badly to be home more with them, but giving up my financial independence when I'm not confident we'll make it. I just can't. Despite wanting it so badly. I could kill him for taking that away from me.


Me: 31, BW Him: 38, WH
2 children (ours) 7/11 & 3/14
D-day 4/18/14 I saw his 'other' email

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ncharge
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Member # 42365
Default  Posted: 9:24 AM, July 15th (Tuesday)

We booked a trip for our anniversary weekend during the HB period. I have to admit I keep thinking something will happen and we will not be together at that time It is only sa week away, and I keep imagining another dday that kills the marriage first. I keep thinking about canvelling it. But I figure I need to have some kind of faith or this R won't work at all.

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tired girl
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Member # 28053
Default  Posted: 9:41 AM, July 15th (Tuesday)

Do you feel like your W is remorseful and is doing everything she can to get to why she did this and make you feel safe?


Me45 Him 45 Hardlessons DS 25,23,20
D Day 1/18/10 his 3/8/2012 mine
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." Eleanor Roosevelt

Posts: 5071 | Registered: Mar 2010 | From: az
meleanoro
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Default  Posted: 9:45 AM, July 15th (Tuesday)

I'm more in limbo than R, but yes.

In particular I am loathe to spend money on our home, major purchases, etc. But beyond that, something like dreaming of a big trip is so far off my radar.

When your dream of a life of building, growing, and openness with each other, with full commitment, is destroyed, it's challenging to pretend long-term life plans have the same meaning.


Me: Tired BS.
(I frequently edit for typos)

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rachelc
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Member # 30314
Default  Posted: 9:53 AM, July 15th (Tuesday)

Yes very much so. We're currently at a lake home I booked in January. I waited til the last minute to pay the bill and hubby asked why. I said I still feel up in the air about us. He said he completely understood.

That said, any major purchase, trip, etc can be dealt with if we split. Ppl do it all the time. I just decided to live like we're going to be together forever.


his Dday: 2/10 but TT until 7/11
my Ddays: 1/12, 4/12 broken NC 12/12

me (WW/BS): 48
him: (BS/WH)52
4 kiddos in mid 20's

“Follow your intuition. Be smart, be brave. Tell the truth and don’t take any shit.”


Posts: 5277 | Registered: Dec 2010 | From: Midwest
Rebreather
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Default  Posted: 11:02 AM, July 15th (Tuesday)

Yeah, it's tough. In some ways those things show that you both want to keep working at it, and find a way to stay together. It's just a matter of if it can actually happen. I just figured a couple grand here or there wasn't going to make a difference if I had to cancel or not go on a planned trip.


Me BS
Him WH
2 ddays in '07
Recovering.
"The cure for the pain, is the pain." -Rumi

Posts: 6549 | Registered: Jan 2011
somethingremorse
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Member # 42047
Default  Posted: 12:39 PM, July 15th (Tuesday)

WH here --

My BW has this. Big stuff, too, not just vacations. She is super stressed at her job, and wishes she could downshift a bit. But she said to me that she's not sure that I won't leave, or that we will make it, so she cannot give up her good job.

It's yet another horrible thing that I have done. I think those fears are getting less and less, but they are still there.


Me: WH (42)
DDay 11/03/13
In MC and IC

Posts: 629 | Registered: Jan 2014 | From: Pennsylvania
veronique12
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Default  Posted: 2:47 PM, July 15th (Tuesday)

But I figure I need to have some kind of faith or this R won't work at all.

Yep. That's pretty much my attitude too despite how hard it is to maintain that faith every day. We are starting to talk again about moving to a new home, something we put on hold after DDay. Contemplating a long-term future together brings up a mix of terror and elation for me.


BW: me (38)
WH: 43
OW: false "friend"
D-Day: 11/29/13 (4 month EA discovered); 12/19/13 (discovered was also PA); TT thru 2/14
Married: 2001; Together for nearly 20 years
2 beautiful young kids

Posts: 551 | Registered: Jan 2014
peaceBmine
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Default  Posted: 3:46 PM, July 15th (Tuesday)

I struggle here as well. Just after DDay we planned an alone vacation and I kept saying, "If we're still together." We ended up having a great time and it was good for us to get away without kids...both for fun and some progress in healing and discussions.

WH keeps encouraging me to book additional vacations (one already booked and wanting me to look for more). I think he knows that the financial commitment would be hard for me to walk away from in addition to just seeing that I need to "get away".

I wonder how long these thoughts of "if we are together" go on. Even though we are both committed to R, it hasn't stopped the "what ifs".


Me (BS)- 42
Him (WS)- 44
Married 21 years
3 beautiful daughters (18,16,14)
DDay- 4/23/14- 6 month EA turned PA just before DDay

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UndecidedinMA
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Default  Posted: 7:14 PM, July 15th (Tuesday)

Not anymore, but it took til this year to do that. All out other plans I bought trip insurance, just in case.

Last cruise we didn't bother & we booked another cruise onboard.


ME - BSO
Him - FWSO
OW - DBC Xwife
DDAY 09/14/11 ONS w/DBCxWOW with 4 mos EA
Solidly in R

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