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I think I'm losing it.

Everything seems to be going wrong right now and the stress is making me handle every little set-back emotionally. Either by anger or tears.

Yesterday, I found out that EX's car accidents are showing up under my name, so now I am having to deal with disputing the mistake, which looks like it will take 2 months. So, so much for getting decent new quotes before my next insurance term is up in a few weeks.

I was told that DS10's math book is missing. So about $100 if we can't find it. I've looked all over, I don't think it's at the house. EX swears it's not at his house. I'm going to clear out closets tonight. Guess who will end up paying if it's not found. Me!

Then, both boys are getting surgeries next week. I told the urologist's office that they need to contact me. I am the custodial parent and that they keep calling EX (since the urgent care had his number listed first and they referred us), but to change it to me. They said they would. I called yesterday to check on pre-ops, etc... They said they would call me today.

The hospital called EX instead. He only talked to someone about one of the two kids and he didn't ask any of the questions I needed answered and he didn't have anyone's contact information for me to call back.

I called the Dr's office pretty upset. I told them that I told them that I gave them my phone number, that I am the custodial parent and I am the one dealing with their health issues and will need the pre-op instructions since I will have the kids with me. She put me on hold for a long time and then said someone would call me back. No answers.

I then got off the phone and started crying.

These aren't big deals...but I am sick of sharing the kids. I am sick of not knowing half of what is going on in their lives. I am sick of DS13 coming home Sunday night after obviously not bathing or brushing his teeth since he left my house Friday morning.

I still have to take care of 100% of the responsibilities of the kids, but with only having them 60% of the time.

I am unhappy, depressed and anxious.

[This message edited by tabitha95 at 3:43 PM, May 29th (Wednesday)]

((( Tabitha )))

(((tabitha)))

I still have to take care of 100% of the responsibilities of the kids, but with only having them 60% of the time.

Me too, and it IS terribly stressful, but you will get through it. I only have 3 more years to go with this and I have gotten used to it.

I'm sorry you are so stressed and worn out right now. You have a lot to deal with. Sending you hugs and positive thoughts to get you through this rough patch....

(((tabitha)))

Ok, break down. Then realize you are dealing with this. The break down is reactionary to HAVING to deal with it, but dealing with it is what you are doing. Good for you!!

kudos, strength and peace winging your way.

Thanks everyone!

A few things got smoothed out since I wrote this.

I need to figure out how to control my emotions. I feel like I'm fighting them all the time. I hate feeling out of control emotionally.

I need to figure out how to control my emotions. I feel like I'm fighting them all the time. I hate feeling out of control emotionally.

You're preaching to the choir tabitha. ((Hugs)) You're doing fine - that's what we're here for.

I need to figure out how to control my emotions. I feel like I'm fighting them all the time. I hate feeling out of control emotionally.

Therapist suggested I schedule time to cry. I needed to cry or I would have a meltdown at some point during each day. I ended up crying in my shower or my bath tub. It really helped to take the edge off of the teary volcano.

Hugs,

K

Before we separated, I cried every morning in the shower.

I hadn't really felt the need to do that for awhile.

But the feeling is coming back.

Doctors calling the wrong parent -- maybe this is a hipaa issue? Is this a doc at the hospital? If so, call the hospital ombudsman or patient rep. You might also try your insurance company to see if they have a case manager you could use.

It's ok to breakdown at work. You're under a lot of stress, and you're still getting it all done.

ETA. I wonder what the law is in your state regarding custodial parents and health care decisions. You might be able to get some general info on a legal website. Or call your lawyer? Nothing like a letter in legalese to make oeople behave.

[This message edited by StrongerOne at 5:03 PM, May 30th (Thursday)]

Unlikely to be a HIPAA vio unless tabitha has sole legal custody. Usually divorced parents retain joint legal custody even when physical custody is primarily with one parent. Unless the orders/decree state otherwise, both parents have right to health, educational etc info for the kids.