Anyway, he is then upset with me for still asking questions and ruining our weekend. He states that rather than trying to find out his connection to her, I should have just told him I don't know her and prefer we don't go to the party and leave it at that. He goes on to say that he thinks I'm just gathering information for a lawyer.
He blames me for our fight this weekend for asking him more questions. Although I think I have the right to continue asking questions, it makes not sense to me why he even wanted to subject me to this.
I know that he has been NC with affair partners from this D-day. But, I am tired of hearing that I am trying to twist a knife, when Im trying to protect myself. I'm tired of hearing how I ruined something and that Im just trying to make him suffer.
He did mention that he thinks his pride is getting in the way. He doesn't get that the affair is not my fault but that I take responsibility for some of our marital problems. He wants to blame me for some of the affair and not be seen as a bad guy. I don't make personal attacks but have expressed how hurt I am. I'm tired of TT being blamed on me. I asked him to tell me everything but he's still telling half truths about the past and getting mad when I have more questions because things don't add up with what I know.
Now he's asking me what else do you know and calling me the "ultimate detective" This is tiring.
I didn't want things to come to this but with regrets and no real remorse I think I am headed to D.
I'm not allowed to bring up the A anymore because he doesn't bring mine up. I had a RA after his first A, so he thinks since he is over my A that I should be over his 4 A's and false r, TT, being blamed, broken NC, etc.
I'm so sorry that he's trying to put this back on you. Don't let him. It's more than ok to still have questions.
If it seems feasible at all, reading "How to help your Spouse heal from your Affair: A Compact Manual for the Unfaithful" is a true eye-opener.
Whether he's doing this on purpose or just doesn't get it, it's hard to try and heal when the WS is lacking in compassion. Take small steps, listen to your gut, and make the decisions that you know are best for you.
Do not back up. Severe tire damage.
He's upset that you ask him questions about the people he knows? You're his wife! If any person should be able to ask questions about his "friends" it should be you.
This is a man who is neither remorseful or even considerate of your feelings. Please read the 180. It may be the only way to prepare and protect yourself from the further hurts that I'm sure are coming.
[This message edited by Tearsoflove at 5:01 PM, September 9th (Monday)]
I think a strong 180 is in order. I see you are pregnant so that must make this so much more difficult. Is there any way you can find an MC and meet with him/her alone first? You want to screen to make sure they aren't going to suggest you rug sweep and accept blame.
Please do protect yourself, just in case. You are NOT crazy.
Triggerish for me too because WW did things similar to your WH does.
WW felt that the LTA was over so we should just go along like it never happened. She would be upset that I didnt want her to go to work reunions and get togethers even though her LTA started at her work and OM could be at these functions AND many of the others that were there knew of what she was up to with him. WW said I was trying to *control* her and that I was trying to *punish* her.
WW refused to answer questions. And now if I ask I get the *I dont remember* lie.
It seems your WH has no remorse and really doesnt care about your feelings at all. After all *he is over it so you should be too*
How are you going to handle this situ?
Hope in reality is the worst of all evils because it prolongs the torments of man.
Aesir, tearsoflove _ agree with you completely. And I don't understand why he thought it would be okay for our family to meet her. I have asked him to just tell me everything at once so I can try to move forward, but he only wants to answer questions. I get "what else do you have?" and I'm answering what else haven't you told me? What are you still hiding? I know I don't have a full story and I don't know how long he has been unfaithful. But asking about anything prior to what happened this D-day makes him really uncomfortable.
He thinks because he has tried to ask me how I feel and tried to be supportive and kept me in the loop on where he is for the last three weeks, He thinks that I am bringing us back if I still have questions, or am still upset at times.
I am going to try the 180 but its so hard to be unemotional when you are pregnant.
But he called me on his way home from work saying that he wants to be more supportive and that he is sorry for letting his pride and ego get in the way.
Then as a gesture, he found a new MC for us and set an appointment for next week ( we saw another counselor a month ago that wasn't working for either of us).
We'll see what happens