I'll try to keep brief, but prob won't be successful..
I'm 47, M, her, 39. Started dating over a year ago. Slow at first, but we gradually moved closer and closer to exclusivity, which began at about the 4 month mark. At about 5 month mark, we did a workout together with this other guy at our gym (team competition) and not long after that, they started following each other on social media. As did I and him.
From that point until about 2 months later, I noticed an increasing amount of 'likes' for each others posts on social media but nothing else that would raise an eyebrow. We had a great holiday season and new year's eve trip and I just filed that stuff away for later (because that's how my mind works, having been betrayed badly by ex wife and ex girlfriend).
We broke up at end of February, for reasons unrelated to that guy. I broke it off after a lot of very careful consideration.
But then, about 3 weeks later, after much more deliberation and soul searching and talking w/ trusted friends, I decided I was being a fool and that it was a mistake to break it off. I wanted her back. I had come to the conclusion that she was marriage material (based on all I knew up until that time).
I texted her after seeing her for the first time since break-up. It was cordial and nice, but I think at that point she thought I was just trying to be 'friends'. A few more messages and a few more days went by and I made it clear I'd like to get together, I had some things I was hoping to discuss with her.
That same week, I noticed that she had gone hiking with her kids and they had gone to a place and hiked with this guy and his kids. She made a post about it and said something to the effect of 'great time with new friends, looking forward to more'. (she has since edited that post and removed that part)
We made plans to meet on Sunday to talk. On Thursday before, I sent her flowers and said I was looking forward to it. By that point she should've had a pretty good idea what I was wanting to talk about.
On Friday before, our gym had a party after hours. I asked her if she was going, she texted back 'yes' but nothing about having a date.
I had a suspicion she might be going with that guy as a date. Sure enough, they showed up together. I left as soon as I could and she saw me leave.
She contacted me very early the next morning, said she saw me leave, was hoping everything was okay. She knew why I left without me even saying, said she had already made plans with him and knew it might be awkward but decided to go anyway, not being certain about what I wanted to discuss on Sunday.
I know for a fact he was at her house until at least 3:30 AM after the party. At 6 AM she was messaging me about our scheduled talk and me leaving the party.
We talked about it and everything else, and she assured me he was never really in the picture, she saw some things she didn't like, and she wanted to get back together too. They came across each other on Bumble in the period of time we were broken up, according to her (I do know she was on there for a while)
I never told her I knew how late he was at her house. I did ask her if she slept with him and she flat out said no.
She had another date set up with him the next week to a concert she bought tickets for, for us originally. She canceled that with him after we had our talk, and told him we were getting back together (something to that effect, I didn't read the texts).
With that behind us, we dove deep into relationship new beginnings, almost like a new chapter, and the next few months are great. Other guy gets a new girlfriend, still keeps coming to same gym, but we mostly avoid them (new girlfriend started there too) and I wasn't worried in the least.
The social media interactions seemed to stop. She dropped him off Instagram, not from facebook.
Few months go by. Very happy then, and not once did my radar go off.
However, earlier last month, my gut starts bothering me about something. I don't know what. Just that instinctual feeling. Sometimes I think it's overly paranoid from the scars my exes have caused. But other times, it just won't stop and I think I have reasons to be cautious. I'm sure many of you know the feeling. Small little flags here and there, nothing too glaring.
Anyway, after a couple weeks of my gut screaming, I do manage to have a quick peek at her phone. She has a code on it, hasn't told me what it is, and is sometimes quite cagey or almost nervous if she's showing me something on her phone. Keeps it with her for most part, sometimes it's laying around, but takes it with her to bathroom a lot, and always keeps it face down.
Turns out, she had recently searched for him multiple times on facebook over the summer. Not in itself a big deal, I do that too sometimes. But then, at the height of my gut screaming at me, there is a text from her to him because his kids had moved schools and they now went where her kids are. She said she noticed this from facebook.
She initiated the text. He answered back. It all seemed mostly innocent in what they talked about. The language she used seemed to indicate they had not been in regular comms for a while.
But why would she open this line of communication with him? Common courtesy? She knows my triggers for the most part. She knows that his and her situation greatly mirrors another bad cheating incident done to me in the past. She knows that he is a sore point to me. To the best I can tell, they haven't had any communication since we got back together.
We've never discussed NC because he wasn't an affair, and whatever happened w them, it wasn't "cheating". We were broken up, technically, until I had that talk with her.
We did however, cover the concept of orbiting. How people will do this, just keep others in orbit, but not actually acting on anything concrete. A instagram like here, a facebook like there, an "innocent" (ie plausibly deniable) text about school or kids or some other thing. No big deal right? Happens all the time.
But a guy who showed up in this focal point of time for us, the night before we started our chapter 2, someone who she connected with in some way and who, on some level she knows she kept details from me? He orbited her for a while before we broke up, she was naive enough to not think all this social media footsie meant anything or was giving him ideas, and once things with me were "over", he is on a date with her. At her house until 3:30 AM.
And she decides to open this texting back up? Showing him that it's ok for communications to happen? That she still has his number?
Not sure how to proceed. Keep being alert, or just put the conversation out there? "Why did you text him about that"? I can see logically how it could just be politeness, but I still don't see the point given this specific dude. He didn't ask her about the school.
My gut won't shut up and it's becoming difficult to know if that's paranoia because of my past, or if there are real things I need to be concerned about. Ask her directly about this or keep an eye out? Would appreciate some objective eyes on this. Thanks!