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Etexas (original poster member #29567) posted at 3:23 AM on Friday, March 9th, 2018
It has been awhile since I have been here. Was trying R but it didn’t go. I tried but something always held be back. I don’t feel she ever really let me heal. It was one of Jose it is over let’s move on thing for her. I guess about 2 1/2 years not really realizing it until I got back into counseling that I was depressed in a big way. She couldn’t take me being depressed. She moved out in July and we haven’t talked since August. We have texted a little about the kids but that is it.
She never said she wanted a divorce but went to see an attorney and we were seeing the same counselor just not together and the counselor was the one who said she intended on filing so I got pissed and went and filed that day. She left me to get the house together to sell and I pack up everything including her stuff. Divorce was finally final in February.
I started a new job in August when I really didn’t want to with everything that was going on but everyone said he would help keep me distracted. It ended up being very stressful and I quit in November. My health just couldn’t take it. I had plenty of money saved until I got another one but I haven’t gotten another one. I am stressing and just about to give up all hope on everything. I am tired physically and mentally. I don’t see the point in going on anymore. Life sucks. She robbed me of everything. Counselor is a faith based one which I like because I kinda of lost my faith during all this. I am tired of hearing God has a plan. A person can take so much. I don’t know what I am going to do. I still have money but I don’t want to blow through it. I have so much hurt and pain that sometimes it still consumes me.
Feel like I am just done with it all. Just can’t keep this up. Counselor says getting a job will help and she may be right but what if that isn’t enough either.
[This message edited by Etexas at 9:48 PM, March 8th (Thursday)]
Me-BS 40
Her--WW 39
D-Day 9-1-10---she spent the whole summer talking to him
Stuggling through R
phmh ( member #34146) posted at 3:51 AM on Friday, March 9th, 2018
I don't think of it as giving up, but as loving and respecting yourself to begin anew. I promise things will get better.
Me: BW, divorced, now fabulous and happy!
Married: 11 years, no kids
Character is destiny
justbreathe74 ( member #53605) posted at 4:01 AM on Friday, March 9th, 2018
Hang in there, it will get better much better!
Please tell your Councelor how you are feeling pretty or get a new one who has no connection to her, and won’t break any confidentiality!
Me BS
DD 20, DS 25
1st dday online EA October 2000
2nd dday PA Jan 5 2001 resulted in separation. R sept 2001married sept 2003
3rd dday June 8 2016 EA possible PA
separated jan 2017
Divorce filed February 2018
Divorced as of May 2018
PlanC ( member #47500) posted at 4:08 AM on Friday, March 9th, 2018
The Piney woods of East Texas are far too pretty to leave you depressed, brother. Plenty of fun things to do. What area are you in?
BS 50; xWW. 4 children.
DD 1: April 2013, confessed ONS June 2012
DD 2: March 2014, confessed affair August 2012 through March 2013
DD 3: October 2015, involuntarily confessed 5 additional ONS starting August 2014 through November 2014 (manic)
shakentocore ( member #46124) posted at 5:58 AM on Friday, March 9th, 2018
Sorry you are hurting. Have you spoken to a medical doctor about your depression? Sometimes you need more than faith or counseling to heal. Please seek the help of a physician.
Also - you left your name in your post. You might want to edit it.
DDay - Christmas 2014. Working on R.
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