This morning, I saw his secret email in-box... I couldn't read any of the threads, but it's not a secret in-box because he's using it to sell stuff on kijiji...
I confronted him about it, he denied it at first, then slept it off for a few hours and when I asked him again, he admitted it... He'd been seeing escorts for the last year and a half... a few times, here and there, a few different escorts... I know there's more to it than that... Cause he refuses to give me the password so I can see for myself!!! RED FLAG!!!
All of this most definitely hurts, since this isn't the first time... but this is the last time... I can't put my heart through this ever again!!! I was just starting to get better, feel better about myself, get back to work, enjoy things again, start trusting him again... I dont know how I didn't see it, or know about it!
My son is devastated!! Hes 10 and a half now and hes very much aware of what's happening,
Theres no hiding it... He doesn't want us to get separated, but I just cant put myself through this again...
It's going to be hard, but at least now, I can move on... I can stop trying to repair damage I didnt cause and just move on with my life... find someone who will truly love me and will treat me like the Queen that I am!!!
I'm done begging for his attention, begging him to not get drunk every night... Wondering if he is cheating again... Wondering when the other shoe will drop... Its over... I cant do this again...