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libertyrocks (original poster member #38924) posted at 7:00 PM on Monday, June 10th, 2013
I guess I have two options:
1) Be on guard for another A.
2) Trust again and see what happens.
3) Other.
Where are all of you?
All I know is I got burned and my guard is up big time. Only 7 months out...Gonna give it a year and see how I feel then...
Me-37 Ws-37
2 kids
Dday Nov 2012, TT for a year.
Reconciling for the third time in 4 years.
MrsDoubtfire ( member #24786) posted at 7:15 PM on Monday, June 10th, 2013
I guess I have two options:
1) Be on guard for another A.
2) Trust again and see what happens.
3) Other.
I like your Math 
Seriously, if I were doing number (1) then I would leave as I cannot spend my life waiting for FWH to have another A. That is like spending my life waiting to die instead of using it to live the life I have!
Number (2) is the healthier option but with a proviso initially... Trust but verify.
Trust but verify worked for me during the early days post Dday BUT... to be honest... as we had gone through months of false R... as soon as he begged to R I saw the difference in him and saw how far he was now willing to go to save the M and how much he was prepared to push to get the IC he so (obviously) needed. This change showed me so much about where his heart was at and that made it easier to take the trust but verify stance.
I still see him striving to be the husband he needs to be which also makes my decision to continue trusting him a good one.
As I said earlier... if I have to police him and his whereabouts then I would rather walk away as I am not a police officer and do not want to spend my life playing private detective!!
so> out of your 2 choices I choose option 3 which is trust yes but add verification to this!
BS(Me) FWH(Him) DDay 05.09
A went underground. True R 02.10
I won't let another woman reap the benefit of enjoying the man my H has now become†
libertyrocks (original poster member #38924) posted at 7:30 PM on Monday, June 10th, 2013
errr.
Thanks. I was only going to put two options, but I figured there should be an "other" category for new ideas.
Nice, I like your idea of trust and verify.
Me-37 Ws-37
2 kids
Dday Nov 2012, TT for a year.
Reconciling for the third time in 4 years.
meplusfour ( member #38958) posted at 8:24 PM on Monday, June 10th, 2013
I am still fairly new in this process but I believe in trust but verify. On the weekend, I triggered badly and ended up going through fWH's car while he was sleeping. Emptied the glove compartments, rummaged and moved everything in the trunk, checked under all the seats, side pockets....you get the idea. There was nothing to be found and on Sunday, when I had calmed down, I was able to talk about the trigger and we dealt with it. When fWH went to work this morning, he saw the mess I had made and put everything away. He called me on the way to work, not angry, but to check that everything was okay and whether I needed to talk more about the weekend. His reaction to this give me another reason to believe that we are truly in R. Every time that I check his car, email, credit card statements, bank accounts and find nothing, gives me another reason to trust him. I do check less frequently than at the beginning but I will likely continue checking for a long time.
Hope this helps.
BW (me)42
WH 44
3 daughters, 1 son
Married 10 years, together 13
DDay 3/14/2013, four year PA
In R
"Sometimes you have to accept the fact that certain things will never go back to the way they used to be."
twodoves ( member #39181) posted at 10:27 PM on Monday, June 10th, 2013
Every day i feel like i get stabbed in the heart again.
He's trying to comfort me, and he doesn't run away when i cry. But this is the same man that did those disgusting things with all of those other women.
I feel like i'll never trust and love like i did in the past,
Me - BS
Him - WS (N3v3rG1v1ngUp)
Together 7 years, married for 2
He was cheating for 5 years
5 OW
D-days: 4/23/13, 4/27/13, 5/10/13
1 toddler, baby girl on the way in December
pewpewpew ( member #38116) posted at 11:00 PM on Monday, June 10th, 2013
I feel you.
A year later I'm still unsure.
I love my WH. I'm hoping R works but I'm ske
BS - 32
DDay 1: July 2012 - EA with COW
DDay 2: March 2015; same COW
Fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me twice, pack your shit and get out.
Fool me twice, now what?!?!
pewpewpew ( member #38116) posted at 11:01 PM on Monday, June 10th, 2013
Oops.
I'm skeptical.
My heart has been broken. My walls are up and my thoughts wander - all the time.
I so badly want to trust. I've always been too trusting though.
BS - 32
DDay 1: July 2012 - EA with COW
DDay 2: March 2015; same COW
Fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me twice, pack your shit and get out.
Fool me twice, now what?!?!
refuz2bavictim ( member #27176) posted at 11:02 PM on Monday, June 10th, 2013
"You break, it you buy it"
Would that work for "other"?
Because I'm thinking that if it happens again, it is gonna get expensive.
AFrayedKnot ( member #36622) posted at 2:30 AM on Tuesday, June 11th, 2013
There is no sense being on guard. I didn't cause them to happen in the past. I am not going to be the one to stop them in the future. I am completely powerless. Either its going to happen again or its not. If it does happen again, what real difference will it make if I catch it a few days in or six months in? It will still have happened.
I hate verifying. It makes me feel dirty inside. It's not me so I no longer put myself through it on a regular basis. If my gut is really screaming or things don't add up I will check for peace of mind. But routine checks just for the sake of checking are long gone. What will be will be.
I don't know if it should be considered trust or indifference or acceptance of reality. But whatever it is it is letting go
BS 48fWS 44 (SurprisinglyOkay)DsD DSA whole bunch of shit that got a lot worse before it got better."Knowing is half the battle"
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