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FaithFool (original poster member #20150) posted at 4:35 PM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013
Today's the day.
My first antiversary at home because the last four I made a point of being as far away from here as possible.
Guess I've stopped running now.
Woke up after a trio of extremely bizarre dreams involving a hole in my bathroom floor, a crawling fish, swimming kittens, and a sweet sweet puppy that loved me up all over.
Just before waking I had the mother of all dreams, x was in my new place here making dinner in MY kitchen (the nerve!) and I was watching TV, some movie starring Sara Gilbert.
He came in, proudly announced that he had slept with her and two of her friends once and she was hot, and went back to cooking.
LOL.
I woke up just after slapping him *hard* on the face (something I have never done), spraying him with dish soap and yelling at him to get out of my house.
Iiiiinteresting.
Gorgeous sunny day here, going to go to the farmer's market and get fixings for a nice salad, then my toxic sister is coming over for tea. She's bringing me some stuff from my dad's second wife's files (both dead now), letters I wrote to him when I was in my teens/twenties, some memorabilia.
Should be interesting.
After that I'll probably go for a long ride and sit on the beach to admire the snow-capped mountains across the strait and count my blessings.
Yay me!
One of the biggest blessings is finding SI and all you terrific peeps. Could not have done it without you...
[This message edited by FaithFool at 10:39 AM, June 15th (Saturday)]
DDay: June 15, 2008
Mistakenly married Mr. Superfreak
20 years of OWs, WTF?
Divorced Dec 26, 2011
"Life is a shipwreck, but we must not forget
to sing in the lifeboats". -- Voltaire
InnerLight ( member #19946) posted at 5:24 PM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013
Wow. What a dream!
I find myself dreaming about X too. Odd dreams. Like me saying, well we really ought to break up. I think there's some level of healing or resolution that can only be worked out in our sleep.
Good for you for slapping him in your dreams. Perfect!
BS, 64 yearsD-day 6-2-08D after 20 years together
The journey from Armageddon to Amazing Life happens one step at a time. Don't ever give up!
inconnu ( member #24518) posted at 5:29 PM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013
I didn't see you as running, more like healing.
I like your dream, btw. Well, at least the part where you yelled at your ex to get out. The Sara Gilbert part is a little odd to me. lol
You've done a great job rebuilding your life, and while I'm sorry you had to find yourself here at SI, I'm really glad you've been here. Hard to believe it's been 5 years already, but I'll be hitting that antiversary in September, too.
There is no joy without gratitude. - Brené Brown
Sad in AZ ( member #24239) posted at 5:34 PM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013
Good grief, what a dream! (Did you get him in the eye with the dish soap?
)
You've always been one of my heros, FF. It's good to see you in a good place.
You are important and you matter. Your feelings matter. Your voice matters. Your story matters. Your life matters. Always.
Me: FBS (no longer betrayed nor a spouse)-63
D-day: 2007 (two years before finding SI)
S: 6/2010; D: 3/2011
FaithFool (original poster member #20150) posted at 5:37 PM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013
Have no idea why the dish soap made an appearance.
I guess it's a metaphor for cleansing?
Who knows...
The kittens/puppies intrigue me also. The puppy was actually originally a swimming kitten who morphed into a puppy when he came out of the water.
After a good snuggle I put him back in the water and he turned into a baby otter, swam back to the mother cat who was happily lying on the sandy bottom, somehow breathing, dunno.
Maybe I'm getting a puppy for Year 5?
DDay: June 15, 2008
Mistakenly married Mr. Superfreak
20 years of OWs, WTF?
Divorced Dec 26, 2011
"Life is a shipwreck, but we must not forget
to sing in the lifeboats". -- Voltaire
gma56 ( member #19595) posted at 8:19 PM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013
If anyone else was writing of their "odd" dream, I would worry. But you FF have some interesting dreams.
Enjoy your day and rereading the old stuff should be an eye opener.
Big Hugs and you're doing OK.
Gma
BW-Divorced
It's my life now, my choices, my mistakes to make and my victories to celebrate. His choices made me free of liars and betrayers in my life. That is priceless.
FaithFool (original poster member #20150) posted at 10:27 PM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013
Thanks y'all. I feel so dang happy today -- it's sunny and breezy and everything a June day should be.
I went and did errands and rode by the old condo building, the scene of DDay, and felt not even a twinge.
Life right now is grand.
I think this calls for an adult beverage. It's 5 o'clock somewhere innit?
DDay: June 15, 2008
Mistakenly married Mr. Superfreak
20 years of OWs, WTF?
Divorced Dec 26, 2011
"Life is a shipwreck, but we must not forget
to sing in the lifeboats". -- Voltaire
gma56 ( member #19595) posted at 10:37 PM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013
It's 5 o'clock somewhere innit?
It is !!
I'm working right now but soon...I will be joining you !
Gma
BW-Divorced
It's my life now, my choices, my mistakes to make and my victories to celebrate. His choices made me free of liars and betrayers in my life. That is priceless.
hexed ( member #19258) posted at 11:17 PM on Saturday, June 15th, 2013
Happy 5th FF!
I've always admired the spirit you've had through out this crap. You seem to have an underlying sense of adventure that has carried you through.
Enjoy the snow caps! And a tasty beverage too.
But that's just a lot of water
Underneath a bridge I burned
And there's no use in backtracking
Around corners I have turned
“Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves - regret for the past and fear of the future.” -foulton oursler
tesla ( member #34697) posted at 1:28 AM on Sunday, June 16th, 2013
I love this post. Especially the part where you slap him hard and tell him to get out of your house.
Oh and the later post involving the adult beverage. Toasting to you tonight, FF!
"Thou art the son and heir of a mongrel bitch." --King Lear
FaithFool (original poster member #20150) posted at 2:40 AM on Sunday, June 16th, 2013
Thanks everyone, love you guys, we're all in this together.
Well I did quite enough riding this morning, so I'm curling up on the couch with a good book and a cold one.
Or three.
Actually got some laundry done today too.
DDay: June 15, 2008
Mistakenly married Mr. Superfreak
20 years of OWs, WTF?
Divorced Dec 26, 2011
"Life is a shipwreck, but we must not forget
to sing in the lifeboats". -- Voltaire
better4me ( member #30341) posted at 4:31 AM on Sunday, June 16th, 2013
Thanks y'all. I feel so dang happy today -- it's sunny and breezy and everything a June day should be.
x infinity!
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DDay 11/17/2010 BW:58
Happily remarried!
FaithFool (original poster member #20150) posted at 7:45 PM on Sunday, June 16th, 2013
So NB is going to get busier come September.
Decided to update my web design skills online from the tech school while continuing with my history courses. (I have an applied diploma but the skill set is about 12 years out of date, so this will be fun.)
FF will be history web nerd....
DDay: June 15, 2008
Mistakenly married Mr. Superfreak
20 years of OWs, WTF?
Divorced Dec 26, 2011
"Life is a shipwreck, but we must not forget
to sing in the lifeboats". -- Voltaire
cass ( member #24261) posted at 10:17 PM on Sunday, June 16th, 2013
DDay - April 2008
Me - 58 and doing great, alone.
Don't put the key to your happiness in someone else's pocket!
FaithFool (original poster member #20150) posted at 1:40 AM on Monday, June 17th, 2013
Yes!
Getting ready for BFF visit (she is coming from Qatar via Alberta) next weekend, planning all the good places we are going to wine and dine.
Nothing like KC Peaches or that tapas place in Dublin though. Divine!
[This message edited by FaithFool at 7:41 PM, June 16th (Sunday)]
DDay: June 15, 2008
Mistakenly married Mr. Superfreak
20 years of OWs, WTF?
Divorced Dec 26, 2011
"Life is a shipwreck, but we must not forget
to sing in the lifeboats". -- Voltaire
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