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I really did think we were special

we were having trouble but we were special and would work through it

he had an affair but we could overcome

we had issues at work but we were committed

we had kids that were special and a house and history and a future that was special

people would say get away from him save yourself get a lawyer don't let him treat you this way

but I knew we were special that our love and friendship could overcome anything and that it seemed bad but I didn't want to speak up or get a lawyer or ruin the chances for us to make it through this

ha ha ha

jokes on me!

we are not special I am just the same as ever abused betrayed spouse and he is the same as every manipulative cheating lyier

our kids are not special enough for him to want to make a real effort

our business not special enough to survive through this

I was not special to him

and it turns out the special person I thought he was I made up in my head

I have to get a grip on reality get a lawyer and fight just like everyone else cause it turns out nothing was special here

Just wanted to let you know you are not alone.I know how heart breaking it is to realize the man you thought he was, never existed. Having to fight the man you love, for things, because he has turned into the stereotypical wayward is so discouraging.

I told one of my friends at our 30th anniversary that I trusted him completely. Two weeks later I was blindsided. Then like you, I thought he was a good man and would do things right for me - wrong.It's another step in betrayal.

I wish you strength in your days ahead.Do not think if you go easy on him, he will come back. It never works that way. Hugs,

I'm so sorry. I remember that moment of realization too...

(((whatamidoing)))

That is a hard pill to swallow. We've all choked it down, though.

You will be ok and realize YOU are special. One day at a time.. One moment at a time.

Hugs. That was a very difficult realization for me, too. However, it does help you move forward.

Hugs. That realization was hard for me too.

I'm still struggling with this as well. It is one of the suckiest things about this suckfest.

((((HUGS))))

It's funny that we all have that belief and it hurts to find its not true

Now when I need my best friend most it is hard to find out I don't have one

I have no desire to date but I wish I had someone

My kids and family have been amazing but I know they don't understand why I am still not over this and I feel weak

I have done so much I never thought I could or ever would have wanted to

Divorce is filed and I did it all I moved his stuff out I fixed my finances and got a separation and divorce I did it even though I didn't want any of it

I am strong

But I am very very unhappy

Thanks to SI for everything you are a remarkable group of people

(((whatamidoing)))

I think we can all relate to you. I also thought I was such a lucky woman, had a wonderful husband, beautiful children, beautiful home, etc. I also never imagined that my husband could do something like this to me...that he could ever be so cruel and cold. He watched me cry in despair and told me to get a counselor to cry to and that I needed to just get over it.

Just know that when you've had some time to heal and reflect back at your marriage, you might see it a bit differently. I now realize that not everything was as rosy as I had thought. He was dishonest about things all the way along, they were just little things, so I let them go. Now, I realize what a red flag that was. He had no problems being dishonest with me. He was also away from home a lot for his job. I basically raised the kids alone anyway, so him moving out hasn't been a big deal. I'm still hurt and in pain, but almost 6 months out and I've come a long way. I can honestly say that I'm happier now than I was in my marriage. I'm excited about the future and getting a second chance at real love.

Hang in there. This is a long and painful process, but you WILL get there. I spent a lot of time browsing the New Beginnings board to see what it was like to be healed. I use those people as my inspiration to know that it can be done and that I will get there.

^^What NS and everyone else said.

The betrayals beyond infidelity were the hardest to deal with right up until I got to this point. Until then I was still holding onto a shred of hope that the man I thought I married was in there somewhere. I knew I couldn't be married to him but there HAD to be some good in him. There isn't - not as a husband, not as a friend, not as a human being, not as a father.

UO said it best - it wasn't the cheating, it was the promises of love and protection that hurt the most.

It was a bitter, bitter pill to swallow. But absolutely essential in my healing. I am no longer hope to see a glimpse of the man I risked everything on.

((whatamidoing))

You ARE special and so are your children. Don't let his actions make you lose sight of that. Like everyone has said, it is such a hard pill to swallow ~ having to accept that the person we thought we were married to, doesn't exist.

You will make it through and discover strengths that you didn't even know you had. Continue to make YOU a priority and work on healing and rebuilding your life. It does get so much better. A few months ago, I probably would have jumped at the chance to R but now I realize I am so much more worthy of shitty crumbs.

((((Hugs))))

I thought we were special too.

He served me a special shit sandwich.

I live in a special hell.

I have also discovered some special skills, that I had no idea I possessed!

Self respect, resiliency, and strength.

You've got them too.