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Morhurt (original poster member #40166) posted at 11:45 PM on Tuesday, August 20th, 2013
Today I feel strong.
I hate and despise what my husband did. It makes me sick to think of ANY of the details, or the magnitude.
And yet, I love him and he loves me. He is remorseful and caring and honest and true.
I also love my IC. Big time. She rocks!
:)
Me: BS
Him: FWS
M: 15 years
4 lovely daughters
Working to rebuild.
LosferWords ( member #30369) posted at 12:11 AM on Wednesday, August 21st, 2013
This is great! 
I am glad you are feeling strong. That is a good sign of healing.
Sounds like you are still acknowledging the pain, yet still moving forward.
A good IC can be very valuable.
Congrats on your first R post, and good luck.
Skan ( member #35812) posted at 1:10 AM on Wednesday, August 21st, 2013
Welcome! May you have many more good posts here!
Imagine a ship trying to set sail while towing an anchor. Cutting free is not a gift to the anchor. You must release that burden, not because the anchor is worthy, but because the ship is.
D-Day, June 10, 2012
Girlietoo ( member #38719) posted at 1:33 AM on Wednesday, August 21st, 2013
Posts like this give me hope. Thank you and best of luck.
Me- 40
Him- 47
March 9, 2013- the day my heart died
Morhurt (original poster member #40166) posted at 5:45 AM on Wednesday, August 21st, 2013
I had a set back shortly after posting this.
We went to the grocery store, bumped into a mutual (woman) friend and were chatting. I saw another woman that my H knows from the gym. I don't like her. She pays attention to him and it's like I don't exist. Anyway she walked by us and intentionally "bumped" into my H. He said hi to her and turned back to us.
There is nothing between H and this woman. But it still upset me. I ended up writing how I felt about the encounter in an email to H and we discussed it. It feels so much better to talk it out. But man I hate that I need to!
Anyway, my theory on her, and H concurs, is that her behaviour IS inappropriate. She is trying constantly to get H's attention away from me. I'm pretty sure that's her way in general. She's cute and skinny and young(er).
:(. It makes so bummed that some bird brained bimbo can wreck my strong, happy day.
Me: BS
Him: FWS
M: 15 years
4 lovely daughters
Working to rebuild.
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