I've been here for a few months now. SI has saved my sanity and my sense of humor. It has saved my pride and has given me courage.
Most of all it has given me perspective.
I know my journey is not yet over...
but I have been so lucky.
Lucky that I had a good marriage for a very long time, regardless of my STBX's affair.
I was never involved in domestic or mental abuse.
My STBX makes enough money for me to live on child support plus my part time job while I go to school.
He also spends a lot of extra money on the kids.
All through the past 7 months we have not fought once over our boys.
I am lucky that I had money saved up to buy a house where my boys will be safe.
I am lucky I already had a fantastic job with amazing coworkers who helped me through and learned more about me than they ever wanted to know.
I am so very, very lucky to have a thousand guardian angels in my life. From my best friends to my mom, my sister and brother, even my landlord.
Yes, my life has been turned upside down, yes this crazy roller coaster is not yet over.
Yes, it has been the worst 7 months I've ever experienced.
But, I am strong. I am courageous. I am a fighter.
I am a survivor.
I am lucky.
And I am blessed.
