This post was a classic and perhaps it helps to explain in part, why the WS community does what it does. 
If you think you could never do this but you did
If you think you aren't worth anything anymore
If you look at your spouse and cannot fathom how they could look at you much less love you
If you feel like you have learned that you are the monster you always feared you were
If you can’t look in the mirror anymore
You are NOT alone.
We know. We know what it feels like. The shame. The guilt. Your insides melting, losing your breath, crying at everything, wishing desperately to have a "do over". Or to have one big eraser.
There are so many things I've learned being in this forum. But the one recurring thing that just amazes me beyond words is this; there are people here, people who don’t even know you, people who want to help, because they've been where you are.
And they know what I know, you are not worthless. You are still a human being, worthy of love.
And even if you have been betrayed and now are the betrayer, you are still worthy. You are still loved and we want to help.
The hardest step, though, is to ask for help. As ready as we are to help you, you have to come here and ask. We can't read minds, we don’t see into your living rooms, and we can’t even see the look on your face.
Be brave now.
Tell us how we can help.
Because if there is a true purpose of life, in my opinion, it is to help one another.
FWW, keeping the light on for those of you hiding in the dark.
BrokenRoad - Member since 2007
