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neverdidithink (original poster member #40568) posted at 8:03 PM on Wednesday, March 19th, 2014
For 6 months I've been swinging wildly between trying to get through today and obsessing over what might happen in the future.
I pray that WH doesn't backslide, but that's really out of my control. He's struggling mightily with something today and doesn't want to discuss it. After some short-lived agida, I'm at peace with it. He'll share once he has had time to process whatever is on his mind. (or he won't.)
I have been preparing meals because 2 of the kids are living at home right now, but for months have been defaulting to far too much comfort food. This week I planned (and executed!) much healthier meals. I went for a walk at lunch time today despite the cold and wind.
I've felt so stuck for months now. I'm not sure what is different this week, but for some reason I'm ready to move forward, outcome be damned. I'll reallocate some of the energy from worrying about As to taking care of myself. Hell, if I didn't have an IC appointment tonight I'd go get a pedicure.
I have no idea why today feels different, but I'm very grateful that it does.
BS, 57
M 13 years
second marriage, second WH
4 kids in their 20s
unfound ( member #12802) posted at 9:49 PM on Wednesday, March 19th, 2014
enjoy the days that are good, and keep them in mind when they're not so good.
glad you're having a good run 
ka-mai
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Kids on the playground can be so cruel. “Get off the swings you’re like 50, and stop talking about Soundgarden, we don't even know what that is."
AML04 ( member #39682) posted at 9:50 PM on Wednesday, March 19th, 2014
And I hope you get your pedicure soon!!
Me-BS Him-WH DS 5/12
Met 2000, Married 2004
DDay 5/26/13, TT through 8/13
2.5 yr EA w/co-worker, PA 12/12 to 4/13
Hopeful for R
1Faith ( member #38975) posted at 10:12 PM on Wednesday, March 19th, 2014
Congratulations. That is amazing and very affirming for everyone.
You are detaching with love and that is WONDERFUL.
We can't change the past but you are a shining example of how we can shape our future.
Kudos to you. ENJOY !!!
Sometimes my life feels like a test I didn't study for
neverdidithink (original poster member #40568) posted at 2:45 PM on Thursday, March 20th, 2014
I'm feeling a little less energetic today, but determined. Putting together a string of good days helps carry me through the not-so-good days.
I can do this, whatever "this" turns out to be.
BS, 57
M 13 years
second marriage, second WH
4 kids in their 20s
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