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ThatGuyNoMore (original poster member #42899) posted at 12:41 PM on Monday, May 19th, 2014
It's been 10 weeks since DDay of my 6 yr LTA. Last night while cuddling with my BS, feeling close, I slipped up: for the first time, I called my BS a term of endearment that I frequently used with my AP. We both new it immediately when it happened. I tried to recover & I apologized, but the damage had been done. I hurt her feelings badly. It reminded her of all the intimacy I had with my AP that I didn't have with my BS. It reminded her of all the hurtful things that my AP said in messages to my BS in the days and weeks after DDay. It felt like a big set back for us in our healing. I feel awful.
Me and BW both 50
Married 24 years, 4 kids
D-Day 3/5/14
14 years of infidelity including multiple ONS and a 6½ yr LTA
I lied to everyone including myself.
somethingremorse ( member #42047) posted at 2:42 PM on Monday, May 19th, 2014
I understand. It feels awful.
IMO, those triggers and setbacks are practically unavoidable. All I can suggest is to not minimize the harm that those triggers cause and apologize for the specific action. Also, I think it's human to slip up every once in a while. If we do it all the time,on the other hand, it indicates that we do not care about our BS triggers. So just try to be mindful all the time.
Me: WH (40s)
DDay 11/03/13
In MC and IC
Alyssamd24 ( member #39005) posted at 10:34 PM on Monday, May 19th, 2014
Just wanted to say I can relate to this and understand how you feel....I had no terms of endearment for xAP but I had nicknames for him....shortly after the final dday I called my BH the same thing and didnt realize that he was aware that I referred to XAP that way....it was very uncomfortable and I felt absolutely horrible about it.
Sometimes the worst thing that happens to you.....the thing you think you can't survive....its the thing that makes you better than you used to be.
Alyssamd24 ( member #39005) posted at 10:34 PM on Monday, May 19th, 2014
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[This message edited by Alyssamd24 at 4:34 PM, May 19th (Monday)]
Sometimes the worst thing that happens to you.....the thing you think you can't survive....its the thing that makes you better than you used to be.
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